Monday, July 31, 2006
everybody,
did i mention how stupid i can feel in school sometimes?
indie doesnt really help now.
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Sunday, July 30, 2006
sorry guys for not updating for such a 'long' time.basically connection has been screwd - connected but i cant sign in nor get onto internet explorer.sucker put me to sleep after an hour and a half of trying.this post is gona be long.
my first experience at honor's day (2006)
i really wanted to update about honor's day yesterday.was dying to.honor's day was awesome.awesome not because i went on stage to receive a prize for combined humans.awesome not because my juniors were there and cheered for me when i went on to collect my present.awesome just because i felt like i was back home again.awesome cause i got to see my juniors,my tchers.awesome cause they all remember me.awesome cause it was there in ij where i could finally be myself again.
the waiting was normal.thank god for cheryl,i had someone to talk to throughout.the only photograph i have of myself in the blazer is me shakin hands with the presenter and its with the camera woman.but if you're wondering,yes i did look hot! :D 5 seconds of fame.concert was pretty awesome.personally i think the band did really well.they played nice songs!(at long last) - simpsons,pink panther and a few others.
after a big hoohaa,walkin into the wrong reception area,collected my cert,ate the catered food.i met all my tchers!not all but most!was invited into the hod room and had a nice loong chat with ms jo teo,tjl,mrs alex,mrs chu,cheesecake tcher,nicole teo,blah.saw mrs kuna! and a few others here and there.pity my best friend wasnt there!so we talked,ate,drank,laughed.it was real fun.
i love ms jo teo alot!
back to ij - brought a smile to my face,a geniune one.and i dont regret it at all!
studying with malvin was alot fun too.thanks for the company.
now im off to do my eom.
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Thursday, July 27, 2006
im happy i got through school today.thats all i asked for.thankful i managed to get through trainin though at times i felt really bad.but i managed.one and a half more hours till friday.thats a good thing considering the fact that ive been counting down since ferever.
and special thanks to
ms tan,nicky,sonn,perry,malvin and of cause,claire!
(yes extra thanks to you claire)
cause i've seen more spine in jellyfish
i've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006
lord,grant me the serenity to accpet the things i cannot change,courage to change the things i can and the wisdom to know the difference.
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Tuesday, July 25, 2006
second look at the watch and its 3 more days to the weekend.everyone knows i cant wait.work piling up as usual.its only second day of the week.its prolly just been me not wanting to do anything and pushin everything to some other day.now im in trouble!sometimes i just wish time moved alot faster.so many things on my mind i just want to get it over and done with.
give me the strength to go on,
cause i dont think im up for another round tomorrow,
or the day after.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSIE!
you know i havent forgotten you,dino/ducky!take care and god bless!
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Monday, July 24, 2006
monday blues,as usual.
so many things to do:
1)
2)pw,eom(extention till thurs,thank god)
3)read as much time as possible,another two issues came today
4)literature worksheet(due wed) [ms jay extended it!]
-edited on 25th july.
the list goes on but i really cannot be bothered.
im just really hungry now and wish mum be back.
wish me luck through the night.
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Saturday, July 22, 2006
such a brillant star you are
enjoyed myself thorougly today.had chinese tuition in the morning.chinese bored me really,trying to learn the meaning of stupid unrecognizable words.went down to town to meet sonn,nicky and leighanne.had lunch at food republic.dim sum.o yes and exciting.i found out the kino sells fullmetal alchemist anime dvds!like 32bucks fer 15 episodes.i so want to get those.guess ive to save up and stuff.oh my and there's like a whole bunch of fullmetal comic books.yes im crazy over it,still.haha.went to the lime flea market.met majo!exciting.oh i forgot to add,i got this top from flesh imp.yay so exciting.no wonder my moneys all gone!
went to meet cherilyn and kavina.walked bout.talked,gossipped,basically we did loads of catching up.watched ac drama do their thing outside taka.pretty interesting.walked back to nydc and had dinner there.nice nice food.yupps did loads of talking there.all was good and we should do this again!
now im home and im dead beat.but i realised that ive got a shitload to do.think i might go fer a run tomorrow.calf muscle feelin tight still.
you blow me off my feet.
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Friday, July 21, 2006
i can barely breathe
its not like i wana feel this way but i do.anyhow tgif.its the long awaited weekends and im so happy.drained fer the past week i think i need a good break.but the weekends seem so busy fer me.and it seems every other weekends gona be the same.anyhow school was aiight.i was glad to get it over.chinese band performed,derek ho's special,cake on shirt,smellin like milk,lit presentation,pw.lunched with perry and nicky,haircut(like finally!),catchin up with roseann at swensons.
i could have been at the gig now with claire but due to some unforseen circumstances,im not.maybe its cause of this,im feeling ultimately pissed and annoyed.therefore,i shall photo blog:
an obsessive amount of pictures with malvin.shall sleep early tonight and wake up early.tomorrow seems so fun yet so tiring.maybe a little drink will be good.
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Thursday, July 20, 2006
story of a girl
training today was tiring.fer me.on medicine still but that is not a valid excuse.i guess ive to buck up and start building up on that stamina.did retarded stuff which was funny.plus francine and i decided to call our team 'vodoo bubbles'.so there,besides the headaches that its giving me now and the aches that will come tomorrow.things arent that bad,i guess.played soccer,physcial and conditioning.enough to send me to bed like now.
school was coolios.long breaks,nice jelly sessions and catchin up with the rest.catchin up means playin 'i never'.now we do things in the best kinds of way.tomorrow's friday.i cant wait.derek ho's surprise followed by sea somewhere and pw.omg i cant wait.plus lit presentation.best friday.there's a gig with claire too!now now,its all about convincin the mum which im too tired to do now.maybe tomorrow.
i like to see people smile.now the hard part is,seeing myself smile once more.
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Wednesday, July 19, 2006
peace of soul
nuthing much happened in school today and even if something did happen it was rather insignificant.besides,i got back my history paper today.astounding 6 fer sea essay and a pass fer both the ih essays which added up to an e fer history.well done,i scraped through terms.so anyhow,perry sonn and i went out after school today.spent quality time with each other,lunching at scotts foodcourt and having a nice long chat at nydc.it was damn fun.started plannin fer parties too and i cant wait!o and btw i bought myself a nice stripy new pencilbox!yay.i hope the 'clingin' and 'clanging' wont bother me too much though.haha.
theres something wrong with me.im alwaes feeling emo.therefore im not goin to listen to emo songs,goin to either watch tv,read something or sleep so that i can occupy myself and not think of relatively stupid things that would make me a more emo person.i hope it helps.
leave it all,the fights and all.summer's getting colder.drive all night to hold you tight back to california.days went by,we waited and i guess we're getttin older.we couldnt win in the end.you're gone.
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006
i never understood before
im quite proud of not bloggin fer a few days.haha im so wierd but who cares.right now,im just really tired.had hockey training today you see.yes we did funny stuff but its okay,getting used to it already.only thing is that i hope i'll have enough energy and stamina to get through physical on thursday!enough said bout hockey.
term results are out,like most of them.say i got back gp,lit,chinese,econs,math already.and i failed gp.yea sadly.and i passed the rest including chinese.haha.im so amazed.lit was aiight.not very well done but at least i passed i guess.o wells.history tomorrow.ssp fer history fer sure but im comforted ive friends there with me,i hope.ha.
i hate those days when i start to think of what we've become,what we could have been and what we were.bonded i admire us fer pulling through the rough times esp with the different characters we have within the clique,but now it only seems that everyone has drifted away.but is there a need to be sad bout it cause afterall it was 'inevitable' i guess with the different schools,the different lifestyls and of cause the busy schedules.ones down,ones goin and many more to come.but we'll pull through,we will cause we will make it happen.lets say,another lgd i guess,with new stories to share.till then,take care tenofus.and yes not forgetting our 11th sista!
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Sunday, July 16, 2006
a decade under influence
so how much does a person spend when they go to the supermarket?100 to 200 at most.but dear me,mum spent 538 bucks today.or was it 558,i cant remember but i mean 500 over bucks is way load.then again most of the stuff arent meant fer us.anyhow,we bought like juice,milo,chocolate milk with nice marshmallows in it,chips,sugar biscuits,candy,milk so on and so forth.im too lazy to list everything.but now i feel as though my house's stocked up fer war.haha okay not really but ya you get the point.supermarket shoppin with mum is awesome!shall go eat some sugar biscuits in abit.puttin all the weight back on ready!
im too lazy to type anymore.
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Friday, July 14, 2006
and i'll kiss the morning air and fly away,
skipped school today but ive a valid reason.i was sick.feel really weak and all.guess there just isnt enough antibodies,antitoxins and what nots in my body.got my medicine and very important mc to cover me fer the day before cabbin back again.i dont know why i always bother going all the way up to bishan just to see the family doctor.spent the rest of the day lazing around,sleeping,reading time(a really really long ago issue) and watchin tv.i've like 5 issues of time still left on the shelve untouched.its time i did something bout it.ive loads to read.brave new world,duchess of malfi,time,international history(which is just overwhelming.i mean imagine 8bucks plus of notes).list goes on.so ive decided to cut down on internet time.ha ha.
oh and did i mention i think i passed terms.well,according to sam's version of passing,i passed.one h1 and one h2.econs and maths.considering we havent gotten back any of our other papers yet.im really hungry and dinner's nowhere to be found.sighs.guess i'll settle fer a little bit of tv first.
fly away from here
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Wednesday, July 12, 2006
parental advisory:explicit content.
(just dont read it)
i've been having mixed feelings for the past couple of days.that sucks.i dont even know how im feeling or why im feeling that way.i sound exactly like john the savage.im sad,im angry,im annoyed,irritated,fustrated,fucked yet im happy,overjoyed.i feel stupid and i think you find me stupid too but i dont care.i know what im feeling.im feelin fuckin emo.yes,im listenin to emo songs but i cant help it.i dont understand others,i dont understand myself.this is eating me alive from the inside.feel like fuck.i should leave myself alone.i dont feel up fer school anymore.i feel like giving up but im only running away from everything and that never ever ever solves problems.but ive never tried to solve any before so maybe i shouldnt try.i hate it when i try too hard and fall.i hate the feeling of fallin down to the ground.it hurts.its so tiring to get up and ive fallen so many times i think ive used up all my strength tryin to get up all the other times.what if i dont have any more energy this time.i cant afford it.and yet i feel myself crumbling inside.i feel my insides fallin apart and i dont know what to do anymore.i dont wana give up because its only going to make me a fuckin loser but,/maybe im just givin myself truckloads of excuses and i know i should stop.i dont even know if this entry makes sense cause im just rambling away.i am goin to stop now.
ive been feeling like puking fer the past couple of days.physical condition leading to my emotional condition equals a major breakdown.argh fuck it,whatever.
i really apologize fer this "emotional unstable" entry but yupps.
cant cover it up no more.
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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
too tired for anything,not up for everything.
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Monday, July 10, 2006
i'm sick and tired fo always being sick and tired
yes yes we all know,italy won the wc.personal opinion but i thought france was more deserving.the way they played.but o wells,its over now.this early mornin match from 150am in the mornin till 5 plus caused me 45 mins of sleeping time,whick sucked.almost died in school today and im surprised i manage to get it by.whats best was that sea tutorial wasnt that bad!haha.in fact,i thought it was pretty good.got home and slept immediately till bout 830.im going to go to bed after desperate housewives end.basically,im too tired to blog.my head hurts.another unproductive day.
highlight: ds gave me a surprise call today!(:
this feeling of uncertainty is gettin the better of me
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
you know the world can see us in a way that is different from who we are
the burns sinking in and im startin to feel a tinge of the pain.like every sunday,today was pretty normal.just that i had boon tong kee for lunch.and slept alot.feeling rather sick when i actually got up.now im sure i wont be able to sleep tonight which is alright since im stayin up to watch the wc finals anyway.i'll just look terribly terrible when i get to school tmr fer the photoshoot at like 11 something.tomorrow sure doesnt look good.plus we have sea tutorial which im dreading for fairly obvious reasons.
im waiting for glory to call and shes taking a long time.and im havin fun talk with francine and bryan.think i should read brave new world.afterall there's lit tomorrow and i dont want to be sitting in class being absolutely clueless like how it was like in the past.yes.
im just glad everything's alright now!(:
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Saturday, July 08, 2006
what i've been looking for
back and im dead beat.think the sun drained me of all my energy.yes just the opposite of superman i guess.went to meet perry before heading of for sonn's club.breakfast and then decided to tan near the pool.i feel asleep on my back which explains why my back tan is darker but hecks.talked bout stuff and fooled bout.enjoyed ourselves thorougly.i dont think i burnt myself as badly as the last time but exposed skin's all red now.haha.if im gona do something like this every week,im gona be a tanned imp.
met up with the other tenofus plus elevent sister,except jessie and alicia.walked bout the lime flea market.claire was being antisocial throughout and we were alwaes split up.plus we took ages to get from point a to point b.doesnt that happen all the time!goodness,i dont know how we do it.nevertheless,i enjoyed the time spent with them only thing was that i was way too tired,way too burnt and my bag strap was hurting me.
think i shall read some brave new world.cant get over the fact i forgot the story but yupps.only thing is that my eyes may close any moment from now and i dont know how effective the reading's gona be especially if i do it on the bed.there's a portugal vs germany(i think) match later and i kinda wana catch it cause its a portugal match.but i've got a busy schedule lined up for tomorrow.i'll think about it.
i know where im heading for and nothing's going to stop me.
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Friday, July 07, 2006
start of something new
listenin to a series of high school musical songs now,since everyone's so into them.and also the fact that i personally agree that they're pretty good singers.i'm sure many will agree.thats why if you,refering to you reading this blog,hasnt watched it yet,you're missing out.okay enough of this.gosh,love their voices.
okay so basically school was like school today.only thing we got let off at like 1230 thereabouts cause moe called all the tchers back fer excel fest.nicky,sonn and perry came over.watched eurotrip.awesome stuff i must say.only thing was that my brother was being fuckin annoyin.and we were fighting,like physically.
went fer a jog.felt good.off fer dinner appointment with kurt.and yes i was late.sorry bout that but yupps.dined at yoshi.was good.talked alot and yes walked around after.got a mini bottle of cointreau!(: thank you there kurt!got a lift home after and boy,i cant wait to get my own car. :D
okay i'll be off to watch my tv show and then to bed.since its early mornin tomorrow.the schedule ahead is fantastic.meeting tenofus,and havin loads of fun.till then,
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Thursday, July 06, 2006
flowers for algernon
today was spent at home and thank god cause had really bad cramps in the afternoon.couldnt go away and thus i forced myself to sleep.had to push myself to go give tuition at 5.chocolate helps,says mum.so opened freddy.boring,unproductive day.
the match in the morning,france vs portugal was sucha let down.in my opinion,i felt that they didnt play properly.wasnt good.and i fell asleep.so like wtf.i thought i heard the commentator saying figo was man of the match.was he?o wells.
somehow thought of the story - foa today.all the studying fer it in sec4.was fun,it was difficult,it was hilarious.cant believe we managed to get pass memorizing those quotes.but i still loved the story.
typed alot today.im goin off.
i cant wait fer tomorrow - perry nicky and sonn are coming over.heh!and then will be off to town!(:
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
who's taking the morning train with me?
today was absolute fun.told ms jay bout the song for brave new world and she saed we could bring it and play it on monday.its funny and i like it.school was a drag and i couldnt wait fer it to end.but the best was during pe period,we played pass the lionel.lionel is nicky's gorilla.we did stupid dares.let me just share mine with all: i had to carry a potted plant,put lionel in it and go up to a guy saying,'welcome to the jungle'.imagine that.
here's a picture:
caught in the act
perry came home with me.played round with the dog.and we watched eurotrip!first time fer perry and second fer me!hilarious shit and im always so tickled by it.addicted to the soundtrack which is basically fantastic.sonn,nicky,perry and i are gona watch it again on friday cause we've early day.cant wait cant wait!my all time favourite!its good to just watch it with girls.haha.
the match later's keeping me high already.think i'll go do some work first.get myself offline,though im tired from the run.kickapoo.helped roseann with econs just now.demand and supply,elasticity.
i love my friends.random but true.
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
get busy living or get busy dying
im feeling way emo.but im cheering up thanks too people like sonn,leighanne,mich and majo talkin to me on msn.makes me feel a whole load better.first i was just feelin way to emo to type anything excpet,'im emo'.math paper,chinese 'a' levels oral which was postively bad.queensway with nicky,sonn and leighanne.fbts are the blast and pacific grip kept me thinkin of good ol days.ikea later was awesome.ikea meatballs,juicy wings.i think i over-ate today.thats enough.shoppin,or at least pretending to shop at ikea with bryan,nicky,sonn and leighanne was totally fantastic!they do stupid things all the time.
sonns got a pretty awesome one too!
my favouritest picture!
credits:
sonia,leighanne,nicky - all of whom took shots.
whats goin to happen if you go to school tomorrow with a hangover?
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Monday, July 03, 2006
as years go by,i'll race the clock with you
bad news.kinda hurt my back while gymmin today.think i strained my muscle.fuck.hope it gets better soon especially after the amount of muscle ache stuff that i applied and pasted on my back.darn it.no weights fer a while i guess.sometimes i think im amazing.wait,i am amazing.trainings gona start and there i start my accidents and what nonsense again.sighs.
math tomorrow and no i dont think i'll be 'kickin butt' fer that paper.not any time soon.more like math will kick my butt.and im seriously hoping that the chinese orals end early tomorrow.i wana go out with sonn and thats final.wells,we'll wait and see.
i know im thinking,too much fer my own good.the mail ds sent me sparked off some thoughts.yes its me being emo again.emo is good fer me sometimes.life ahead is goin to be hard.and so i figured.i need to make some sense of what im saying soon.
im off to sort the presents now.what to bring and what not to.i dont think im ever gona give some people their presents.this is bad.haha.o wells.
so the train leaves without me,
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Sunday, July 02, 2006
i feel frustration sometimes when the words don't come out right
dont know why but it feels like today was the first time in a long time that i stepped into church.wierd.then again it may just be me.went fer math tuition after.i dont know but math seems so hard all over again.numbers numbers more graph and numbers.how exciting.there's absolutely nuthing to do tonight which totally makes life so boring.hopefully i'll be able to dig out some kinda dvd to watch and entertain me.afterall,its not everyday that you get a youth day holiday you know.math tutorials shall be my part time companion.which reminds me chinese orals fer the a's are on tuesday as wells.bugger.
currently waiting fer my songs to get transferred over.thanks michelle law.haha.awesome.on the other hand,i think itunes is a tiny bit screwd up.dont you think.
all the thoughts running through my head now isnt good fer health,foreign bacteria you might want to call it.i just wish it would all go away,maybe forever.but i dont know.i never fail to let myself down sometimes.i can be so emo.
waiting fer just another day to pass me by,
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Saturday, July 01, 2006
come on everybody get loose tonight
considered jogging today as a failed attempt.the only part thats considered an schievement was went i managed to crawl outta bed really slowly.lunched with mum.ij carnival.headed fer tuition.dinner.nuthing really interesting actually besides the fact that i slamed the door on my finger today and it fuckin hurts.screw it.
math followed by another another round of peach vodka sounds awesome.not sure if i should go dig out a vcd to watch.im tryin to enjoy myself as much before school reopens and ive to start facing the fact that im gona get screwd by ms ng and that i might have to go fer ssp.after talkin to glory last night,im not exactly looking ferward to it.
let me take off and never touch down.
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when the engines stall and it won't stop raining
today was nuthing but fun.honestly.a friday and out with the friends.no school,no work,no pressure.what more can you ask fer.but anyhow met up with sonn and nicky.shopped.i got myself a num shirt.freaking ex but o wells,i need to give myself a treat fer pulling through terms.back to sonn's where we did
just hang up with glory.i think she had an overdose of chinese ****.
never felt this good in a long time.today was a totally awesome day.i wonder whether some peach vodka would end the day well.heh.i think i'll start preparing fer math tomorrow.
smile like you mean it
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