Sunday, April 30, 2006
rushing off to town then off to sonn's.the day looks good already.i cant wait.and when i'm back tomorrow.you'll see how we enjoyed ourselves and cam-whored.the bbq,the excitement,the company.i really cant wait!
i'm off now.and you know i'll be enjoying myself.yesterday's nonsens has all cleared away by itself.i'm up fer a brand new day,with my friends.and you.
good day everyone.
lunch with mum and bro calls.
i did a rough sketch at 12:40 PM
Saturday, April 29, 2006
the 29th of each month is a sucky day.the 29th day of each month should be striked off the calendar.29th of each month are useless and stupid.we should never have them.29th of each month brings back memories,cold,hard.the 29th of each month sets me thinkin bout the past and the future i'll never see.the 29th of each month brings pain,hurt and love.the 29th of each month is nothing already.
i'm tired,dead tired.emotionally,spiritually,physically.things are not goin too well now.so much to catch up on,so much to do.lets hope tomorrow'll cheer me up.sighs.
woke up at some stupid hour in the mornin.met nicky at holland v.went back to school fer the brit council debates.ac beat acs(i) in the quarters and lost to world team,but i guessed they did a good job.three cheers fer joseph who got best speaker!walked round town lookin at and fer stuff.but before that,leighanne,nicky,sonn and i had a fantastic lunch at swensons.lamp chop,crayfish pasta,apple crumble,shared with dearest sonn.off to town.saw ms sungetha with her friends at some coffee club place outside tangs.haha.my feet hurt.drank doctor pepper.the last time i had it was ages ago.yesh.it feels good.then off to tuitioned.sucked.and i hate it.i think that kinda ruined my mood.actually nah my mood was ruined since mornin.but thats not the point.
so im back home now rotting in my room,not feeling good bout everything.i want to sleep but i cant cause ive shitloads to catch up on,piles of work to do and reallyi wish i could chuck everything aside now.but no i cant,stayover tomorrow and a hectic monday is what i foresee with tuition(econs),pw meeting and tuition.that has to suck.i'm honestly deprived of a few pleasures in life.one of them being sleep.study study study!
fuck the free world.
and i cant help but to admit that cold,hard fact.but the truth is,i do miss you.but things arent going to change,i know.and the only thing i do now is to think of our past,my present and the future.i fall on my knees,tears show.i write our names in the wet cement and stand back admiring it,thinking of the times i thought were the finest.not anymore i guess,though i know i'll miss it and keep it close to my heart.now tell me,would you?
i did a rough sketch at 11:59 PM
Friday, April 28, 2006
everything that happened today seemed pretty screwd up.pe was so dizzgusting.we ran five rounds again.i swear i'm really unfit.but thats beside the point.during econs,i was supposed to study fer southeast asia.but the stupid tutor had to get me to do the outline of the essay on the board,half of which was crap.but thats beside the point cause by the time we got settled and things like that,i didnt get to study my southeast asia at all!and thats just bad.so we had the writing exercise aka test.its terrible cause i just wrote crap.apparently if you fail the test you get sent fer detention or you write a hell load of essays.both of which seems just as bad,but anyhow its over.ms ng wont have a chance to give it back to us till next monday.sheesh.thank god.so we had free period fer lit.as usual it was a 'one hour' break fer ourselves.so sonn and i decided to take a short walk to the sports complex to get pe shirt and stuff.and we saw ms tan.so we waved and i suddenly realised that we were supposed to be in lit class.i seriously hope ms tan doesnt realise.thats like the stupidiest thing ive done today.sighs.
o right after pe and before gp,while sonn was sittin at the bleachers.nicky and i tried to give sonn her four lemon cupcakes with candles.but it was pretty hard cause the wind was so strong and sonn caught me in the act.but anyhow i hope she liked it.sighs.i cant wait till sunday till whatever we do.
so you see my weekends are so fully booked.was supposed to go watch the movie tonight in ac but nah some stuff came up and so im not there.darn.so tomorrow's the debate,i might go.and erm stuff to do in the afternoon.tuition at night.sunday will be spent at sonn's house fer the party.stay over.then pw on monday.yes tell me its packed.im gona be so busy.plus i've to catch up on all my work.
i'm just feelin a tinge of disappointment now.anyhow i'm so hungry.my mum isnt back yet.sighs.will somebody please do something to make me happy?haha.okay whatever.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONN!
and know that i'll alwaes be there fer you.love!
goodnight.
making my way downtown
walking fast,faces pass and I'm homebound
staring blankly ahead
just making my way
making a way through the crowd
i did a rough sketch at 9:40 PM
Thursday, April 27, 2006
i shall take some time out from studying precious southeast asia,which im still gona fail to blog bout today cause today's an interesting things.wells bad things first,i failed my chinese test.sighs.and it was bad.really.i really do need to buck up.like now.okay and econs was broing,i managed to sleep through cause leighanne covered up fer me!ha.i cant really remember school time but anyhow i skipped maths tutorial.i hope tan yiwen doesnt find my blog or something.its going to be disastrous,plus she's my cca tcher.how could i forgot.
okay so i went to town.got my trucker's cap.haha!yay!though i look wierd in it.heck,i like it.communist/mao-reject apparently.but anyhow came back to school and i saw roseann,lalee and david!yay!watched the rugby match.ac won by like 67-3 if im not wrong.and we decided to put friends before studies so we went to have dinner at cjlmxlb.perry left halfway though which was a pity,but dinner was good.and mum has dinner fer me at home which means ive to eat dinner again.she seems to be in a rather bad mood today.better not cross the line.
cant wait fer the movie thing held by arts council(?) tomorrow night with sonn and nicky,probably perry.and then the party we all look ferward to on sunday with a nice bbq(:
i cant wait to meet the tenofus,considering the fact i missed claire,alicia,jessie today.and of cause ds.yes yes.the weekend does look promising.
anyhow here's the pictures fer today:
this is a way that i say i need you.
if you look closely at my tongue,you can see a guy's face.looks like malvin though.
bad attempt in the toilet
we lose sight of the ground - me,micrphone and sonn.
the intellectuals of cause - me,sonn,roseann,perry
six out of the ten of us - my bundle of joy
thats the six of us with the eleventh sista,david aka p.i.m.p
thats us lookin stupid together.
one last picture till the next time we meet
home by three to deafening quiet - roseann,me,nuraini
thats a whole buncha pictures fer today.maybe more tomorrow!cause cause cause its a special day!haha.o wells.tomorrow will be better,we know it'll be.and yes southeast asia's shouting,no screamin at me.i can practically hear gloria chan calling.and even though i know its goin to be bad,ive to try to study it.sighs.
goodnight people.
i did a rough sketch at 9:16 PM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
sports day but dearest ac still had lessons in the mornin.reached home late and nonsense like that.im drained,like completely.somehow in the morning you start off fine but halfway during pe you just lose steam,and thats how you're gona be fer the rest of the day.lit test was a screw up.quantity does not equal quality.sighs.stoned fer the rest of the day.
something i was just thinkin bout.its like no matter how drained i am,how tired i am.i'll come online and check the other eight blogs.as in out of the tenofus.i just feel the need to find out whats goin on with their lives.maybe its out of habit cause ive been doing it fer so long but i don know.something im sure is that deep down inside i sure miss the tenofus being together.and things are gettin so hard when everyone's everywhere else.pity.hard to meet and things like that.and with one off in melbourne you know things arent the same anymore.yes they tell you that you've to let go off some.but who the hell are you kidding!we're the freakin tenofus.and i cant imagine not being friends with you guys ever.life'll just suck.i know we all make new friends and have our own lives now but there's no runnin away from how you guys will alwaes be the bestest friends i have.afterall,we've been through so much together.i love you guys.take care.and i cant wait to see you soon!and when will it be till we take sucha fantastic picture of us again.
tenofus.
I CANT WAIT FER CJ PEOPLE PLUS ROSEANN TO COME OVER TOMORROW!
southeast asia and pi are calling.was just in the mood this kinda post today.ive got to go now.hopefully i'll get to sleep early tonight.plus its a record.theres no homework to rush!yay!
goodnight world.
and always know that tomorrow's a brand new day.(:
i did a rough sketch at 9:13 PM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
i went fer a run at bout six.was supposed to go earlier but i dropped my contacts and had a hard time findin it.okay thats not the reason why im here to blog.
anyway,while running i was thinkin bout old times.you know it feels good to sweat it all out.like i havent done it in a loong time.so basically,i just started thinkin bout my badminton times and stuff.sighs.footwork,runnin,footwork,playing in the court,more footwork,more running.that was wen i was still healthy.now ive no stamina and things like that.actually it is nice sweating it out in the badminton court.with your badminton mates.i guess people who dont play badminton will never understand it.the amount of energy needed to fight everything around you,especially when things are going to well.stupid referees,lousy shuttles,wind,not enough sleep the night before.everything counts.sighs.
i still wonder sometimes why i aint back in badminton.why i chose to join hockey.why,cause i know theres a part of me that still yearns to be a badminton player.and i cant help but admit the fact that i miss playing badminton.i miss being the old me,in a way.i hope nuthing else changes.
done with pi,like finally.ive lit now.and southeast asia lecture 1b.not forgettin there's ih tutorial tomorrow meaning ive two ih questions to be done by tomorrow's tutorial.and im sure ive listened to the franz ferdinand cd five times round.random but i feel like goin fer another run tomorrow.not in school but by myself again.sometimes thinkin is good.
goodnight
and lucky ducks are those people who get to sleep early today.
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gosh.the post i had up yesterday is finally up.goodness.blogger can be a big screw up sometimes.okay anyhow.bloggin to de-stress abit now,not that im really stressed though.yea wadeva.okay.so i skipped today in the hope of catching up with whatever work.yes especially southeast asia.i was supposed to start my day at like 730am.but,i woke up with a massive headache so i went back to sleep till like twelve.if im not good,what am i?
so life's been a bore since.lunch was not very nice since lunch was almost non-existent.right.i didnt feel like aq anymore cause i didnt get the first passage.so now im on southeast asia.lecture notes 1a.joy!at page 11 out of 21.ive taken ferever to read it cause,its really boring.i dont understand it so ive to reread it again.and did i mention,its really boring?!
so i shall continue with my southeast asia notes.i intend to finish lecture notes 1b today too.so that would be 30 pages altogether.followed by lit cause we've a writin exercise tomorrow.then my pi.what a drag!the only thing that cheers me up is : franz ferdinand.yay yay yay.
okay,let's go!
if we were feckless we'd be fine
sucking hard on our innocence
but we've been bright in our decline
been left as blackened filament
i did a rough sketch at 4:23 PM
Monday, April 24, 2006
currently chillin to franz ferdinand.yea!eating my dinner.bloggin and attemptin to do gp.
like every other boring day.only thing's that today i left school at 740.holy cow.this is bad.and i pity the poor people who are still in school.anyhow the day went by relatively fast.'hen-witted gigglers',i think ms ng's hilarious.yups.cheese pratas with loads of snacks brighten my day.stayed back after school fer pw.yupps our like group stuff.and im elected group leader.right.so ya tads me.was rainin,had a nice long talk with fiona.realise im not speakin/typing coherently.ah wadeva.i think im better off finishin up gp aq and summary,touchin on lit hopefully,abit of pi if i can and first priority fer now,southeast asia please!the test on friday will be graded.ms ng's not gona let me off if i fail.really.
im so lookin ferward to desperate housewives.and im so lookin ferward to the weekends.already.something tells me the long holiday's gona be a blast!i wonder why.
like any other normal day,we cam-whored:
as we ride along under an optimistic sun - the hair-band.haha.
the only difference is all i see is now all that i've seen.
i'm gonna make somebody love me - dont ask me bout the hand sign please.
fade together.
i'm your villian so watch out!
goodnight.
i see losers losing everywhere
if i lose it'll only be the damn i give for another
i am complete, invincible
if i have one set principle
then it's to stand on you,brother
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Sunday, April 23, 2006
apprentice is taking way too long to start.but i can wait.its finale or something.yes,then after that there'll be no more interesting shows on sunday night.so today wasnt as productive as i thought it'll be.went to church.headed to holland v.wanted to have dimsum but the queue was way too long so mum,bro and i settled fer thai express.the food was yummilicious.came back home and instead of a half an hour nap,i slept fer like an hour.talk bout productivity.those accidental naps irk me.anyhow,went off fer tuition.elasticity,demand and supply and me stoning away half the time.i wonder why im even botherin to learn all that.i seriously hope that there aint gona be no test tomorrow.
now im back home and strugglin to complete my gp compre,lit outline and studying supply and demand cause i fergot everything.ive decided to do pi tomorrow.stewpid thing.i gave up halfway on the econs essay.shall complete it tomorrow,hopefully.as you can tell,my life keeps gettin worse.everyday im complainin bout the amount of work i have/have yet to complete.i need a break and i cant help but look ferward to labour day,vesak day.as long as its a public holiday,it'll thrill me.
plus,the weather's killing me.major breakout.i hate it.plus ulcers.can you believe that.this is ridiculous.anyhow,i think i look better wearing a hairband.haha.yes tomorrow leighanne nicky(if nicky comes) and i shall have fun during chapel tryin on hairbands and tellin jokes.but thats another story fer tomorrow.
on a brighter note,today's dp day.and what exactly does dp mean.let me show you:
yes that's it.
and its celebrated by:
us.nicky and me(when my hair was so so so much nicer)
now i shall go back to sitting,stonin,attemptin to finish gp.
goodnight world.
and pray the week ahead be over and done fast and good.
surreal,and thats the only word i can use to describe how it felt like early this morning.so tie a bunch of balloons together and let it float up into the sky,maybe tomorrow,maybe never we'll realise how special those were.now,do i make sense?
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
every day passes so quickly.wish life will slow time fer abit.then maybe i could cut myself some slack.not that im not slackin,but.you get what i mean.yupps.my day started late,as usual.did some nonsense and slept some more cause i was feelin under the weather again.had tuition at nus.my tutor had two complimentary tickets to 'burn the floor' which has gone to a complete waste.headed down to the east and tuitioned.had supper at balastier.though i think im still gona be hungry cause i didnt have any carbo.darn.
life is as boring as can be.but its life.sighs.i think i'll stay up tonight to get some work done.and im still sittin on my pi.too lazy to get it done.econs and southeast asia tests next week.thank god fer econs tuition but im screwd upside down fer southeast asia.okay enough of complainin.im off.
turn off the lights and turn off the shyness
cause all of our moves make up for the silence
an oh,the way your makeup stains my pillowcase
like i'll never be the same
i did a rough sketch at 11:17 PM
Friday, April 21, 2006
we ran five rounds today and fer some reason even though i had the energy.i just didnt want to run.and so the body is willing but the mind is sitting on the sofa eating chips.like totally.but thats besides the point.maybe if im not too lazy,i'll go runnin some time soon.maybe.school was fine.pw group's cool.what can i say.im sure i'll do fine.the only thing ive to worry bout now is my schoolwork.its givin me quite abit of problems.there's just too much to do.or maybe i should just stop procastinating.yes yes i should.enough of school.im sick of it.
tgif.so after pw tutorial,nicky and i headed down to town.yes and we shopped.but not much though.far east first.we spent too much time goin into nonsense shop.shopping with nicky is a killer.anyhow i bought a coolio shirt from 'in prison' or something.got a studded belt.and guess what!we met sarah,gillian and hwa chong!its been so long.and other random ij girls.but gosh was it good seeing all of them.had fried mars bars and spicy calamaris.awesome stuff.walked to taka.got my notebook and pens from kino.shopped round fer abit.had takopoachi.yes.ive been eating alot.and home sweet home.i had pizza and wings fer dinner.believe it or not.
weekend's so short but there are so many things to do.i hope i'll pull through fine.think i'll do some work soon - ih,sea,econs,gp,chinese,lit.
talk about my life:
enough said but you've been golden - nicky,leighanne,me.sea lecture
i hear the exclamation point - me,hwachong!,nicky
holding back,now and ferever - nicky,me,sarah and gillian
night world.
oh,i once saw many place the end
i promised the world and a dozen roses
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
todays the slackish day of the week.you know the one with super humongous long breaks in between.the one where your breaks are much longer than your lessons.yea thats the one.so we do what we usually do on thursdays.yupps you guessed it - camwhored.besides taking a grand total of a 172 pictures we managed our time rather productively by playin the funniest games on earth and basically just chillin out.lesssons were a bore,as usual.and chinese test was stupid.i think i got one out of four fer mcqs.but whatever.oh yes and i passed my econs test.fourteen.heh.so nicky's gotta shut up fer a day now!cant wait!hahaha.
skipped drums again.i think williams damn pissed.but im really too tired fer anything nowadays.its just me and my life.but i should stop complainin cause it aint gona help anything.but anyhow i slept the whole afternoon away.it was so good.havent done it in a long time.kay that just summarises my day,along with the pictures.o and btw,family law is a really good show.random but heck.homework,sighs.
finger-licking good - malvin,amanda,leighanne(who's almost non existent),me
moments ferever faded - david,me,amanda,malvin,leighanne.
mine,malvin's,bryan's,joanna's,david's,nicky's,leighanne's,amanda's.
i'm just a bad actor stuck with a shitty script - joanna,me and david
and i'll be here when you get home - david,jo and i
retrace the steps as if we forgot - thats half of 1ad1,half.
lost and found
sail with me into the setting sun
im too lazy fer the rest.
and i need to finish my homework.
goodnight people.
i did a rough sketch at 8:13 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
mind over matter.
fer the purpose of discussion,this entry will define the term 'mind over matter' as putting your mind over the matter at hand?duh!this entry will point out that others have said that it works and can be applied to everythin,everywhere and at any point in time.however,there are inaccuracies in this statement as i,amanda ang has found out today that it does not work.like totally.this entry will then go on the argue that however much your mind is over the darn matter,you're not gona be able to pull through if you're feeling like how i am feelin today.
im totally drained from hockey.it was even that tiring.but im tired.i guess its the lack of exercise.this is bad.ive chinese to read up on later.i am so dreading it.anyhoehow,didnt feel right in school today.mixed emotions.feelins that cannot be described.funny though.thank god,i managed to pull through.
had pe today and i totally blasted it.felt damn bad.cause i whacked glory on like her lip/tooth with the floorball stick.sighs.i feel damn extremely super uper,did i mention super extremely uper,bad.sighs.i know shes fine and stuff but i cant help feelin like bad and you know.ah whatever kay,i just feel bad.sighs.
then the rest of the day was sucha drag cause i dont know.wasnt feelin too good since the mornin.i was so tired and restless and lifeless and everything else.missed lit today cause ms tan wasnt around.econs lecture was a bore and ih tutorial was pretty normal i guess.pccg was a killer though we got nice books.the joke dwong and i played on leanne was hilarious actually.hahaha.that silly girl.
hockeyed,sucked.and
all the best to the people with ih,geog and chinese tomorrow.
currentl,im just running on empty.
shall i whisper in the dark?
hopin' you hear me?
do you hear me?
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
i'm so freaking tired.woke up at seven thirty in the evening thinkin i was late fer school.beat that.its a rainy day today.which totally spoils the mood fer anything nice.so roseann crashed ac today,like finally.talked fer abit.cam-whored fer abit.skipped econs and had a nice chat with her at the bleachers.went back fer lessons and skipped pw to go out fer lunch.yes.so school wasnt that bad afterall.thai expressed but before we could get there it started pouring.and we got soaked.sat there fer like three hours,partially cause the rain didnt stop till five.it definitely ruined my plans to go home and study,which means ive more homework and stuff to cram from now till one.joy!but it was fun catchin up with roseann.we need to do this more often.
so lets let the pictures do the talking:
ten of us - the ones in ac.
ten of us - the ones who are missed in ceejay.
(david is one lucky guy.mr p.i.m.p)
when the singer's gone,let the song go on - drenced at thai express.
me with roseanns notebook -scribblings courtesy of glory and i
now take a closer look.glory wasnt here to stop me.though i dont think shes gona be too pleased with the edits.haha. (click on pic to enlarge)
new song of they day.
off to study now.
goodbye.
your arms are my castle,
your heart is my sky.
they wipe away tears that i cry.
the good and the bad times,
we've been through them all.
You make me rise when i fall
i did a rough sketch at 8:14 PM
Monday, April 17, 2006
my tutor is nowhere in sight.i wonder what happened to him.anyhow today was rather hectic.rushin fer lessons and rushin to finish undone homework.thats pretty much life every monday.im feeling pretty restless now.there's really nuthing to do,besides study.sighs.i cant wait fer desperate housewives to start.fer now its chinese and gp.i cant get started on econs essay.maybe i wont do it.im way too lazy fer my own good.and that is bad.
wells,thats all fer today.im too lazy to blog.chinese,chinese.
i could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
watch you smile while you are sleeping,
while you're far away and dreaming,
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
i could stay lost in this moment forever,
when every moment spent with you
is a moment i treasure
i did a rough sketch at 7:57 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!
easter lunch at hardrock today.food was awesome.portions were so large they were a killer.some starters,combo thing with absolutely delicious chicken wings and calamari rings.followed by main course.steak,surf and turf and ribs.amagad.it was heavenly i swear.lemonade to accompany.free flow mind you.dessert was some ice cream with an apple thing as base.i ferget the name of it,suddenly.
headed to nicky's after.sat bout fer a bit before walkin to perry's.nicky had her birthday hunt.she's sucha silly billy sometimes.hope she liked her present.stayed at perry's fer abit.doing well absolutely nuthing.with claire readin us something from the newpapers once in a while.back to nicky's.was pouring and i unfortunately had to share the umbrella with claire,lalee and roseann.jeans got wet and lalee was drenched.goodness.lazed round.drank whatever nicky gave.headed down to town.
dined at scotts before walkin to cine to catch 'ice age2'.movie was aiight.funny and stuff like that.yea.company was awesome eh.had mochi.and came home.
yes it was a good day.im gona finish writing my sea history tutorial 4 and then go to bed.even though ive yet to do chinese,sea tutorial question 5/6 and gp.
study amanda study.
before tonight ends:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE MOOSA!
you know i love you.
the nine of us once again.how much ive missed you guys!
dont ask me where i was looking and why i look so wierd.
tell me i look fantastic in nicky's peach boxers.
till roseann sends me the rest of the pictures,
goodnight.
and all my plans
keep fallin through
all my plans they
depend on you
to help them grow
i love you
and thats all i know
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
no tuition but i wasnt able to sleep in tad late cause my darling mum was makin a din,fer some reason.anyhow i stayed home till say,two before goin down to j8 with my bro to meet my mum.i did something really exciting.i studied chinese.amagad.one chapter.im so proud of myself.
anyhow lets fast ferward it to tonight.easter vigil was good.usually we would attend mass at novena cause its the few churches which doesnt have baptism.but tonight my mum was gona be somebody's godmother so we went down back to holy cross.the choir was awesome.and god's presence really filled the whole church.everything just felt good.plus the church was jam packed.wells anyway,mass lasted fer like three and a half hours.
headed to boon tong kee after.havent had it in a long time.and everytime i go there i remember the time dalvin,roseann,jessie,alicia and i had chickeen rice at the outlet in balastier.miss those days.im back home now and im feelin pretty lonely cause of something,someone.yea whatever.
but theres tomorrow to look ferward to.easter lunch then i'll be seeing the ten,well nine.actually its eight.okay nevermind.i'll be seein the rest of them.that is really really really what i call exciting.then i have a dinner appointment.(: tomorrow looks good.
fer now,ive to finish my homework.dang.more chinese,lit and sea tutorial before i get dcs.
your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night,
this idle hour just wont pass
i've never missed you this much,
never thought i would,
didn't think you'd feel so far away
your summer perfume is still,
blowing through this hallway,
autumn's amber red shadows dance
i miss your midnight rides on highway 18,
18 is gone.
p.s. mum if you're reading this,please stop and kindly close the window.thank you and you know i still love you.
i did a rough sketch at 11:59 PM
Friday, April 14, 2006
an angel popped by at bout one last night and we had the best time of our lives.did nuthng but talked.whether we made sense or not,i dont know.but it was helluva fun.small breakfast at some awkward timing and talked some more.slept fer abit and we finally parted at 6.lovely.
thank you,angel.
i did a rough sketch at 2:05 PM
Thursday, April 13, 2006
excess of black bile in the body - melancholy.
thats what they call it.i cant help feelin that why but im sorry and thats just me.maybe i need a hug or someone really nice to talk to.or maybe i just need some quiet time alone.school's been drainin and you've absolutely no idea how overjoyed i am cause the weekends here.long weekend.its gona be a busy one,with church and stuff but it beats goin to school.although i do think that ive to try to catch up on work.chinese ct,gp ct and maths ct next week.killers.plus i need to catch up on econs.i always knew that there was a down side to doing ih tutorials during econs lectures.haha.
knees feel so sore from the fall yesterday.pus comin out.it looks dizzgusting.i cant even sleep properly but what to do.plus the excess of black bile prompt me to skip drums today.and i was really lookin ferward to it.sighs.william laughed at me cause i couldnt make up my mind to whether or not i wanted to go.kept messagin him tellin him otherwise.now im just hangin round slackin.loads on my mind.
on the other hand.it was major cam-whoring today.and excuse me.do you know how many pictures we took.a hundred and forty.like amagad.i look dizzgusting,but i know we had fun.every thursdays,you're gona see us do our thingg:
let's look ahead and then we'll see the one whose glory never ends - nicky,me,leighanne,ryna
we could burn this town down - fiona and i
its the nymph with her sausage and me looking retarded.
so feel the air about - ryna and i
fast ferward lesson and this is how we do it.
blogger cant upload anymore pictures.maybe another time,if im in the mood.
say anything
but,say what you mean
when you whisper you want this
your eyes tell the same
we are gaining speed
i can barely breathe
cause i'm caught in suspension
i did a rough sketch at 10:12 PM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
im dead tired.i think i fell asleep while watching tv just now.wait,its not i think,i did fall asleep.what in the world am i talkin bout.lessons today were not too bad.though i think pccg is a complete waste of time.i spend half my pccg periods stoning and thinkin bout nonsense.its quite stupid if you ask me.i went fer hockey today.amagad.im really unfit.but hockey was fine.besides me fallin down on the freakin big d,well tryin to score a goal,which didnt get in btw.haha.ms tan said ive game sense,i do?its quite hard to even believe ive sense sometimes.haha.o wells.had calf cramps today,while runnin.thank god fer fangting who helped me.shes really nice.think i better do more stretching and nuts.apparently its due to the lack of iron/salt.senior and ms tan couldnt make up their mind.o ya and ms tan saed ive to be more energetic when i read duchess of malfi.haha.cause i sound half dead.im actually participating in lit class.haha.its quite nonsensical but ms tan's either complainin that i cant sit straight(first three months),and that i dont participate.now that i do,ive to be more energetic.amagad.its hard to please isnt it.but i guess she's right this time.o wells.who cares.
i guess i should be off now.think i'll do some international history.i need to know korean war and cuban crisis.and maybe a little bit of lit after that if i dont fall asleep.drums tomorrow.i cant wait!
somehow today i feel quite stupid bloggin bout my day.im feelin so nonsensical and stupid now.i wish someone could cheer me up.but i have to add this:
ds made my day wen i recieved her postcard with postits on it.omg.i sure miss her.thanks fer the postcard.and i better be replyin her soon.(:
counting stars wishing i was okay
crashing down was my biggest mistake
i never ever meant to hurt you
i only did what i had to
counting stars again
i did a rough sketch at 9:56 PM
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
mac gets the sack today.
history test was bad.like downright bad.everything's just goin abit wrong.better start workin soon or something.o wells.tuesdays are relatively boring.had religious emphasis thing in the mornin.but this time i fell asleep halfway.dont think yiwen was too pleased.mugged fer history all the way and wasted time in pw.this is quite a senseless post.ive two international history essay outlines to do now.had a nice long talk with glory.hahaha.ditsy.okay im off now.think i'll sleep early tonight and chong history tomorrow.but thats what i always say.sighs.
camwhored fer abit also,so yups:
camera shy but still a star - glory and i
dont ask me what we were up to but i think was like shot 7.
holding tight and trying not to hide how i feel - bryan,leighanne and i
i'm far from lonely - glory,me and nicky.
i'm not the way you think i am- me,leighanne,nicky.
this is what you do in pw - messy hair,i was sleeping.
i look awful in the pictures.i think theres something wrong with nicky's camera.haha.o wells.enjoy the day ahead.tomorrow sure looks promising.just wish someone was here right now,really.
so the world goes round and round
with all you ever knew
they say the sky high above
is caribbean blue
i did a rough sketch at 10:38 PM
Monday, April 10, 2006
initially i thought of doing the 'ten things you'll never say to someone' but i decided to keep it fer another day.fingers are numb with the air con at 17 degrees.today was a bad start.econs test went wrong and school was a little bit draggy.besides ms ng aint gona be too please when she reads my sea outlines.i better try to right every wrong now.o and btw my mum told me we'll be awae fer seventeen days.save me please when term exams are right after.international history test tomorrow.i cant tell you how screwd im feeling right now.sighs.at least there's desperate housewives to look ferward to later on.
cam-whoring tomorrow.all you better look nice!(:
im addicted to so many songs these days.
i used to hang on every word,
each lie was more absurd
kept me so insecure
but now that's over
i did a rough sketch at 7:53 PM
Sunday, April 09, 2006
i just got back home.so the day passed pretty slowly with me slackin and not doing any work.woke up at eleven in the mornin.wished my best friend.yes planned fer ben and jerry's.came online.there was nuthing interesting.so watched nanny mcphee with my bro.quite a good show i must say.went back to sleep and woke at 5.just in time to get ready and leave the house.
met han at wheelock.had dinner at the big o's.some chicken leg wrapped in bacon thing.was good.talked fer abit before cabbin down to the dbs arts centre.i had to call ms tan and ask her fer directions.how embarrassing!haha.wells we found it.mixed round fer abit.met charmaine oh!haha.small world i must say.
tempest was pretty interesting and funny.esp with li ming and han insulting each other.many people didnt understand the play but o wells.i got abit here and there.but you must say the set was pretty darn good.i mean with glory,ben chow,nur aini and people like that,what more can we ask fer.and glory if you read this,you dance pretty darn well dont you think.hahaha.im serious.k snapped a few pictures with the gang before heading fer supper.caught the clock at 11:11pm again.gosh!i cant wait to get lucky.
had bak kut the with han,ele and a few others that i didnt know.they were j2s.pretty funny people and they're friendly.jwong,daniel/david/something like that and mel.talked cock and stuff.after gave aaron and han a lift back.
thanks fer the day,everyone.
now im freaking tired.and im goin to bed.econs tuition later on plus theres church.and i need to start studying fer my history and econs.joy.
pictures of the day:
smile fer the camera and give me your best - han and i
i need something more cause my visions lookin bleak - amanda and amanda.yes yes.
nicky,sonn,amanda,me,leigh-anne,amisha.
let me leave you with an awesome song.totally awesome:
there's a song that's inside of my soul
it's the one that i've tried to write over and over again
i'm awake in the infinite cold
but you sing to me over and over and over again
i did a rough sketch at 1:52 AM