Saturday, December 31, 2005
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
approx one hour fiftenn mins to a brand new year.time to get used to writing the dates again.im getting more retarded as the minutes pass.whats gona become of me when its 12midnight.somebody tell me please.
so what can i say?2005.good/bad.but i made it through another year.not bad eh.hah.my year revolved round school.which year doesnt?manda what you talkin bout.haha.o wells.but its just more.and school was just cool and fun even though it was sec 4,o's and all that kinda crap.who says sec 4s cant have fun.its been helluva fun.and i dont wana leave ij.i dont wana leave school.i had hell fun.esp the last day of school.haha.picture taking was awesome.
everything that has a beginning,has an end.the year's ending.we're all goin our seperate waes.kinda sad.but there's alwaes happiness in everything.the lessons learnt,i will ferever remember.the joy experienced,the most fulfilling.the hurt felt,brushed away.the friendships made,im never letting go.
thinking bout all that has happened in the past yr.(i feel old)but it was so much fun.it was fantastic,bombastic.i'll never have given it up fer anything in the world.i wana go back to it all.i just want sec4 to start all over again.
i remember the day before school reopened.i msged perry asking her to save a seat fer me.my first signs of me still being on earth.i mia-ed the whole hols.it was so stupid how i never called or msged them.and i missed out on a whole load of fun.damn.but its still not too late.im holding on you guys!
then the whole year with all its silly nonsense.more like the nonsense i created fer myself.haha.wells some were fun okay.all memorable.there was tournament.o gosh.dont remind me.trainins.crying practical,more well known as the 'bastard prac'.the pc and cme lessons before self-awareness.if you remember mr ng and his 'BKL' joke.that was funny.then self-awareness itself.chocomania was a blast.we did win fer our level.(:after all tad hard work.we're madness.
our hard work.what say you?
the recesses at the bench.loner's paradise.haha.planning fer class bbq.post prelim retreat.takin attendace(somebody save me!)grad night.preparation for grad night(was a killer!)the birthday celebrations in the shed(and those not in the shed too!).mr ng's surprise party.mr ng's grad night farewell stuff.racial harmony.drama night.our own lgd night at sonn's.the extra lessons after school.most memorable will be the one roseann and i had with 4/1.totally hilarious.mrs kunna's emaths lesson on vectors(esp the one where bird and i were fallin aslp).majo's chalet!goodwood with ten of us.night study.chinese new year.and louha-ing.laughing.talkin.dancin.moshing.chilling.yellin.screaming.the gig.night safari.picnic by the bench(blocked by the cars,thank you.)picture taking!
and that sums it all up.HAVOC's screamin in my face.wad have i been doin fer the past year.besides fooling around.i should learn to be more productive next year.ya right.leopard never changes its spots.im not intendin to either.heh.ive got a whole new year.yes!another year to play round,to act like a fool.come on its only j1.everyone,cut me some slack.im gonaa chill,with the capital C.
special thanks.to.
badminton team - the juniors,the seniors,the ex-seniors,the coach,the tchers in charge.
ya you guys were like a big part of my life.trainings.how we used to laugh and make fun of each other.we were one crazy team.then tournaments.the crying,the happiness,anxiety,madness.good food from other school's canteens.and the joy of being allowed o leave the class early.how we used to hang out and all.im sorry i missed the farewell.and maybe i'll go back fer next years.all the best in the upcoming tournaments.train hard.all the best.
4/4'05
you guys were a blast!wasnt all that smooth sailing but hey we enjoyed it.we drove the tchers up the walls.the other classes up our asses.and i couldnt believe we actually enjoyed it.thanks fer all the times.chocomania esp.we stuck together and we held on long enough.so i guess there'll be a class reunion soon.till then.all the best in whatever you do!take care.i miss you guys!
tchers
gratitude.i remember mr ng telling us that.heh heh.how can i not thank my tchers.mr ng,mrs alex,ms yip(though she never taught me and i was runnin awae half the time),ms ng(how can i ferget her.my best friend),ms teo(shes the bestest!),mrs selvam,mrs kunna(konnies!emaths was fun!),the chinese tchers and the cme tchers(esp ms yap and ms chow.i will never ever fergot to take the debris off the floor.and the rolling of eyes.)
to those i only got to know this yr
you guys know who you are.i shant list all.it was great knowing all of you.and the fun times we shared together.some hilarious,some just plain serious.thanks fer everything.and they say,life just keeps getting better.
us
me(duh!ive to thank myself!),roseann,claire,perry,alicia,sonn,ds,lalee,jessie,nicky.
fer all the good times we shared.the nonsense we did.the fun we had.the fights and how we got over it.the laughter.the joy.the sorethroats.the naggin.the drinks.the tears we shed.fer the past 2 yrs.thanks fer alwaes being there.fer making my life so special.fer showing me the part of myself that i would have never seen.fer growin with me and supporting me all the wae.thank you guys.though we're goin our seperate ways.we're still supposed to meet fer lunch at least once a fortnight.we're still supposed to hang out till our hair turns grey.sit at country clubs and reminise bout the good old days.i'll miss yer guys.love.
claire,four years of friendship.dont you ferget me anytime soon.and our drum lessons!we'll become professional drummers.get rich.book hotel rooms.invite the rest.and i hope perry stops being a neh neh bout cleanliness and decides to give up on cleanin fer once.something tells me to dream on.
you*
thanks fer making my life more happenin than ever.haha.tell me bout it.thanks fer there and making me feel special.thanks fer all the times we shared.all the moments we had.all the fun and joy.everything i wana say,ive saed.yes im excited fer a surprise i noe is gona come.haha.thank you.i love you. ((:
my partner - perry lam the smarty pants
if we hold on together
i know our dreams
will never die
dreams see us through
to forever
where clouds roll by
for you and i.
p.s.more fotos.another time.this post is too long.and im too tired.((:
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and so i got contacts today.ahhhhh.it wasnt neat lookin at me put in the contacts.but im cool with it now.i hope i'll get used to it soon.and pray i dont do something retarded with it.save my life.its a two week contact,three months supply.heh.we'll see how after that.
people say 'when theres a beginnin,there'll always be an endin'
but we're different.we had a beginning,but theres never gona be an ending.
somebody stab me in the heart.make me feel again.the tears in my eyes are nonexistant.the stars up in the sky are slowly passing by.so will the moments,till i feel again.
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Friday, December 30, 2005
thnks for nine million red bicycles
i love u
land of forever
tonight (:
see u there
with a word
three letters
heh
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Thursday, December 29, 2005
its been a good day.
so 28th mornin.we went back to the new school compound which is ridiculously big.we got lost.i mean six blocks.thats just crazy.and they're all connected.classrooms are white big and clean.i know that they're gona be black two days after school reopens but i shall keep my comments to myself.the school's already painted.the staff room takes up two levels.and they have a spiral staircase inside.coolness.hod room has big tables.they have study room and computer room filled with plasma screen coms.new tables and chairs fer classroom and canteen.the many levels killed our feet.how is the homeroom system gona work?its ij girls youre playing with.did anyone forget tad?lockers are smally wally.its just wierd lookin at it now.bio labs are so er white!the gas thing is so cute and ridiculous.and its like safety hazardy looking.took some pics in there.i cant imagine tryin to cook in a room somewhere on the second or third level.then again its only us 4/4'05 girls who do the combination bio(home econs).waited fer the tchers fer ferever to get outta their meeting.took pics with them.my dear mrs konnies!i mean mrs kunna,ms ng!,mrs helen ten,ms lim,mrs low!,ms teojl,MS JO TEO!i miss that woman!i so fuckin miss her!shes so cute!invited us to her house fer pride and prejudice!lets go.but damned school's starting!o wells.
this woman i will remember fer life!
then we headed down to the hotel.goodwood.cause we're good.tads wad tjl saed.shes funny.lalee and i jumped on the beds.ruin the whole place.and havoc-ed till we almost lost our voice!was hilarious,was fun!had lunch at subway.back to hotel.we scared ds and claire by tappin on windows,runnin water,dark toilets,sonn in her super cool looks-like-a-pontiank(using bathe robes from the hotel).perry and i in hoodies.they were screamin.it was hilarious.and lalee with only her hair out!ds was on the verge of tears,screamin.claire and all her im gona be brave but not daring to enter.haha.
surprised claire and roseann with their birthday party thing.they were hilarious.perry put the cake in front of roseanns face,she pushes cake to claire who pushes cake back to her.manda has the knife and doesnt noe who to give it to.den manda goes 'the cake is kinda fer the both of you'.the look on both faces:priceless.
exchanged xmas presents.thanks guys!
so all went well and i hope both loved their presents.claire,please i'll be hangin round ur hse more often to practice drums.haha.
dinner at nydc was superlicious.walked town.and we drank liquid looking things.ate everything we brought.watched jackass.had cup noodles.i swore like mad.effects of the show and the liquid thing.then we decided to walk town.many cool pics.zhao traffic lights.walked from goodwood all the wae to ps.and back.wanted to walk to esplanade but we figured we wouldnt be able to take it.someone saed i looked like a drunk,another person saed i look like a rich street kid or smth along tad lines.haha.hotel room,new york minutes.slept.finally.
woke at 11,claire at 12.she didnt see the mornin sun again.haha.and the breakfast was way awesome.the bacon was hell good.and we checked out.cleared mess which was like omg.most of us had sinus.ds is sick.tc.and nicky's sprayed killed all the living things in the room.we had to walk out.10 yrs of education in a pure bio/chem class and she doesnt understand the meanin of diffussion.wheres the brains?i dont know.shopped round.
home.fun.didnt get to sleep.haha.o wells.and fun ya.
im eting quiche and sausage now.this entry is so long.who in the world is gona bother reading it,i dont know.i dont care.
ciao fer now!
and thats wad we do at 3+ am in the mornin in front of the taxis at the traffic lights in town
circle of life.oops.
peace,world.manda's the next big thing in town.((:
im lovin' you.
im lovin' it.
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
my feet's aching like madness.
i found an awesome shop today.its called candy empire.its fuckin awesome.and i love it.and best part is they sell my starburst!i know where to run to now wen my stock of starburst runs out.im so amazed with the shop.and o gosh!they sell freddo too!yay!im a happy person!
i cant wait fer tomorrow to come.there are so many exciting things to look forward to!((: im very excitied!then there's num tad i wana go to and maybe my abercrombie and fitch.i'll think bout tad!yayness!
tomorrow's gona be a happy day.im gona be a happy person.((:
however far away,
i will always love you.
however long i stay,
i will always love you.
whatever words i say,
i will always love you.
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Monday, December 26, 2005
im so tired.
im goin to bed soon.
((:
i miss you baby,
and i dont wana miss a thing.
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happy boxing day to all.
anyone whose in fer a box can come look fer me.i'll be glad to give you some.
where are you tonight?
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Sunday, December 25, 2005
merry xmas to all.
(although its abit late.but nuthing's ever too late ey)
i just want you for my own
more than you could ever know
make my wish come true
all I want for Christmas is you
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Saturday, December 24, 2005
how does dinner at the thai restraunt sound?
merry xmas eve to all.
and everyday that passes by,
ive come to realise,
you're everything i need.
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Friday, December 23, 2005
holland v today.lunched at thai express.good food.beef stick noodles and then green curry.i feel like a pig.i am a pig.heh.wad am i talkin bout.then went to cut my hair at vogue.and the hairdresser wasnt ready.walked around fer bout an hour.paid da pablo a visit.the food is alwaes temptin.hair cut was aiight.my hair is neater and really looks wierder.i swear.the fringe is a little funny if you ask me.but o wells.im cool with it.i like the hairdresser.cold storage trip.mango sorbet and mochi mochi.i eat too much fer my own good.came home.slacked around.had some fun with stickers and slept all the wae till 8.tryin to get dinner down my throat now.how exciting.
its hard to say that i miss you
since you've been gone,
it's not the same.
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Thursday, December 22, 2005
hello all.
went to ikea today with roseann.ate the much-craved-for ikea meatballs and chicken wings.deliciously delicious.walked round ikea fer awhile.and i was so dead tired cause i couldnt sleep the night before,even though i tried to sleep early mind you.roseann and i were sitting on the sofa and i was kinda sleeping.heh.got some stuff and ya we were too zonked out we went home to sleep.and it was raining the whole day.came home at bout three plus and i slept till six plus.i can forget sleepin tonight cause there's no way im gona be able to sleep.
was reading through all my old posts last night.all the memories and feelins came rushing back in.the good times,the bad times.i so miss those days.and i was really stupid last time.felt so retarded wen i reread all my posts.haha.den again im not any better now.but i see my bloggin style has changed alot.wells.things change as a person changes i guess.was nice to just be readin all those again,relivin the memories of the good all days.im pretty sure i'll be readin more the tonight.somehow i cant wait cause they're kinda interesting.was mostly bout school,badminton and stuff.had funny posts.some were hilarious.made me smile and stuff.life was good.still is.will alwaes be.i hope.((:
so kiss me and smile for me.
missing you.
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005
i had lunch at 5ive something today.talk bout a topsy turvy lifestyle boy.im into a new computer game that my bro intro-ed to me.i never knew computer games could be so fun.its called diner dash.heh.i'll be off to play it after bloggin.and it isnt as easy as it seems.haha.o wells.
8 fuckin long days.tell me is it possible?
take this time to think about what we saed we'll think about.((:
lets officially start the countdown.
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sick mode.today was spent lazin round at home and doin some stuff.ya.and my eyes were swollen,my nose runnin and my ears blocked!ahhhhhhhhhhhh!save me please somebody.and if married to the kelly's today,i missed it.damned.i need to get my tv life back.soon.
i'm here without you baby,
but your still on my lonely mind.
i think about you baby,
and i dream about you all the time.
i'm here without you baby,
but your still with me in my dreams.
and tonight,
it's only you and me.
i love you.
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Monday, December 19, 2005
I LOVE YOU!
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Sunday, December 18, 2005
today was spent with da mother and brother.st anne's fer mass.then headed to town.i met ms jo teo!obviously havin a discussion with a few of her friends.saed hi to her and she asked me where i was goin and i saed town.she was actually asking me bout the jc i was goin to.heh.im so blur,seriously.okay so it was nice seeing her.im really gona miss that woman you noe!lunched at marche.seriously overate.gluttony is a sin,major.shopped round.my mum bought me a pair mambo board shorts.yay.thanks mum.and then we went to catch mr king kong.the show's seriously over-rated and noisy and it doesnt help wen u've lousy seats and irritating guys sittin in front of you.touchin,well.sad,a little wen king kong died and ya.tads it.home sweet home.
treasure everything you have in life and one day you'll realised that its everything you ever need.
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some things bring the heart closer.i realised that i actually love my bro alot despite the fact that hes a fuckin annoyin thing.he's cool and without him my life would be retarded and boring.with him around,my life's just abit more than retarded.heh.
love,joy,laughter,smiles makes me a happy person.fun-filled with no interruptions.im lookin forward to a brand new day,for tomorrow is filled with surprises.im sure i'll enjoy.let's go.
happy birthday mum!
i love you.(:
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Friday, December 16, 2005
strength - to carry on each day and treat it as if it was brand new
it is at night when everything starts.its when every nightmare begins or continues.somehow you hope and pray hard that it will end.despite all the pain and hurt you've been through the night before,you alwaes force yourself to pull through cause you always believed that tomorrow's a brand new day.the strenght to carry on makes you a stronger person,makes you more whole.the will to live shows you that the line 'if there's a will,there'll be a way' 's true.and however hurt you may have felt the night before,and however lonely and upset you thought you were just fades awae like how the moon fades when morning comes.you no longer see the moon,you no longer feel that pain.but when night comes again,all the feelins rush back in.often,you question yourself and ask yourself why you had to go through all this pain,why it had to be you and not some other person.somehow those questions were never answered.and you'll never find out why.it is these times that you feel that there's no point carryin on,that your life isnt worth it,that you're just a nobody.you feel empty inside and you dont believe and neither do you care for the things around you.the only thing runnin through your head are all that emotions - the pain,the hurt,that sorrow.you feel that sharp pain in your heart and you wish everything would just be over.all the sucidal thoughts come in and you feel that that's the only way you'll be able to solve everything.but is it?what happens after you die,you ask yourself.do i go to heaven or do i go to hell?purgatory?but is dying worth it.is throwin away your life fer the sake of something you know you can get over worth it?deep down,you know the pain,the hurt,the sorrow will all go away if you let it.but will you?or are you just lookin fer the easy way out,hoping that it will eventually solve all your problems.you dont notice that the easy way out helps only fer a while.its a short term solution.in the long run,you'll realise that by taking that shortcut,you made more problems fer yourself.you never made anything better,you never solved anything.and you know that the only way you can save yourself from all this pain is not to die but to face up to it and overcome it.to let go of all the feelings you have inside of you and look ahead.to treat the next day and every other day like a brand new one.to make the best out of it and not to dwell and live in the pain and sadness that you've inside.to learn new things and acquire new skills and to live life to its fullest.emotions can overwhelm you.it can cause you to cry and the pain felt is something words cannot describe.but emotions isnt all about sadness and hurt and pain and sorrow.there's more to it.what happened to the happiness,that joy.once you've realised how to appreciate the things in life,the pain and hurt will not mean much,will probably not really mean anything.in life,many things hurt you.they bring you pain.but in life,there are many things that bring about happiness and joy.maybe you feel like your life's a total failure.maybe you feel miserable and stupid.you feel dumb and somehow or the other you get that feeling tad the whole fuckin world is against you.but take a step back and look at your life.look at the world from a different pair of shoes.to you,your family,friends,a roof over your head,the love you get,the sunlight you have,your eyes,hands,nose,mouth,legs,your tv,your computer,your shoes,bag,bed,food,daily neccessities,freedom are things that you dont appreciate.you take these fer granted.you dont realise the amount of joy and happiness it could bring to the disabled,the vagabond,the beggar sitting by the street,the lonely,the sick,the poor,the homeless,those suffering in the third world countries,those in jail.you dont realise that all that you take fer granted are those that would bring happiness to these people.and the last thing that many people take fer granted is our life.the one that was given to us wen we were born.we are in control of our lives,of the many things we do in our lives.and sometimes we make a wrong decision,one that we regret,one we wish we never made.and again we are hurt,we feel sad,angry with ourselves fer being so stupid.fer acting like a fuckhole.and we want to end everything with a cut on the wrist or wadever way we can think of.but dont we realise that the life we have is so important.so precious.how many people lyin in the hospital would trade their lives with ours.how many people dyin in those third world countries would rather our lives than theirs.think about it,what you may be going through now may be hard.it might be the crisis of your live.but dont you think,once you get over it its gona benefit you,cause you know never to make the same mistake again.you know that once you let go of everything and move on,the pain will leave.you'll become a happier person.and you'll realise that your life is indeed precious,that there are many people out there who are in worst situations than you are.and one day when you're older you'll definitely look back and you'll go..o man i was so stupid then but i got over it and now look at me.im happy,im powerful cause i managed to get through the obstacles life placed in front of me.i managed to move on.to find true happiness and to live.you'll realised tad you could never have asked fer more.however if you choose to end it all,you cant even look back fer you will be ferever dwellin in the past.you will never feel the happiness and the joy that everyone would one day feel.so appreciate what you have in life.take the obstacles,though painful,as a lesson and learn from it.it'll bring you much further than you expect.these lessons will teach you how to learn and to live as a greater person and deep down inside you'll know that many others will admire for maybe at that point in time in their life,they never knew that such a great person could ever exist.
this is going out to you*.
and i hope that it'll help you pull through.
fer the pain and the hurt you're feelin will only be fer that moment.
it will leave a scar,yes,but it will teach you many things in life that no others can teach.
i love you and i know that whatever it is you'll have that courage and that strength to pull through.i have faith in you and you must have faith in yourself too,for only you can help yourself through this now.i will be there fer you all the way but promise me you'll never give up.i will be there lookin at you one day,feelin extremely proud,knowing that you became what you had set out to be,that powerful person.i will hold my head up high and annouce to the world that that person standing there is my friend,the one who pulled through,the one who experienced all those difficulties and hardships in life and yet pulled through.that alone makes you more powerful than anyone else in the world.
i believe in you.carry on and treat every day like a brand new day.
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
today was spent in town.taka to citylink to suntec.walked all round.lunched at marche.i had my rosti.heh.and den walked somemore.result:happy people.(:
im so tired.my eyes are tired.i wana sleep.ahhhhhhhhhhh.o wells.and i've to sudden urge to try run up the wall.gosh!madness,im going crazy.i honestly have nuthing to blog bout.im off to mission impossible now.wish me luck.
au revoir.
thank you fer today.
i love you.(:
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005
farce - my mockery,that empty show.
the heart loves what it loves
and its will is but its own.
it has no rhyme, no reason
knows not time nor fixed season
it breaks free from the mind
it seeks for to find
that soft summer's glow
midst the rain, sleet or snow.
the air crackles, it hums
and the pain sometimes numbs
in the glow of the moon
or the whisper of the 'soon'.
it sometimes is battered
torn apart, broken shattered,
but it loves, for it must love.
and the poets cannot explain it
ropes and chains shan't, cannot contain it
as it soars to the sky;
on its painted wings, fly!
for the heart, though it is but a heart
loves what it will love
the heart loves what it will love.
the heart loves.
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
immigration at ten forty in the monring.i waited fer half an hour.idiots made me rush,deprivin me of my sleep.took the passport pic there and o fuck it.i look like some fuckhole.my eyes sucked.still does.waited fer wad seemed like ages.and headed to purvis street fer some good beef noodles.bugis was good.walked round fer abit.sat at mos.home.bed.
i think i need dinner.
and i spent all last night,
tearing down every stoplight
and stop sign in this town.
now i think there might
be no way to stop me now.
i'll get away despite,
the fact i'm so weighed down.
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Monday, December 12, 2005
today was spent with roseann,jessie,nicky,perry,alicia,ds.crystal jade.walked round wheelock,looked at stuff.coffeebean where we bulled fer a long while.
wen fer mass after.was good.felt good.i spoke.i listened.i think i heard.
long time ago,i put all my emos into a bottle.making sure i was feeling-less.that day i opened it and everything rushed back.guess wad,i didnt like the feeling.so back in the bottle.there its gona stay,fer a very long time.
p.s.thanks roseann fer the moo cow mug.(:
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Sunday, December 11, 2005
note to self:
smile and be happy,the world has nuthing against you.
and you dont owe anyone a living.
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Saturday, December 10, 2005
the kinda thing where you cant do nuthing bout anything.its just that.
with all that stuck in my head.
its hard to say how i feel inside.cause maybe wad im feelin is not even a feeling.maybe all these is just crap.i dont know.but does everything you do or feel have to have a reason.and if there's a reason fer everything.why cant i find any behind how i'm feelin inside?
and i ask myself that question a million times.i dont get no answer.
but i dont give a shitt bout all this now.i learnt how to not care,a long time ago.
and its time like this tad i appreciate my zen and my blasting music.for one,its the only one tads keepin me company.keeps me alive,inside.makes me happy esp when im down.keeps me goin.tads the power of music ey.
im off to do something tad im best at.sleep.and maybe i'll sleep everything away.but maybe i wont.you'll find out later.
i'll fly up to the sky,reach out and grab a star,place it in a bottle.and from then on,the star will be something i can call my own.
its 1145pm.
the sleep wasnt tad good.didnt take anything away.but wells.i still got sleep.i hope there's something i can look forward to,but there's nuthing.actually there is,is there?
im talkin crap.
sonn saes she likes the little msg i wrote at the end of my entry.thanks sonn.at least someone appreciates it.(: heh.
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Friday, December 09, 2005
today was supposed to be a good day.
was s'pposed to go to immigration to change my passport picture but i woke up late and so yea,forget it.think i might do it tomorrow or something.im so totally not in the mood.
anywae went round citylink todae.walked bout.esplanade.roof.library.saw some band perform.some trio.acoustic set.and they were really good.tho they pissed me pretty bad cause they werent really performing.only doing a sound check.but they were cool.merlion park.city hall.home.
it was supposed to be good.
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and some things just hit me so hard.
its feels as though someone just stabbed me with some kinda spear.
and the spear went right through.
thank you.
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Thursday, December 08, 2005
i see we've all grown up and gone our seperate ways heh.wells,that's life aint it.
so life goes on.and mine is extremely stagnant right now.i'm boredd to shitt and ive nuthing to do at home.plus ive to go and change my passport photo tomorrow.boring with a capital b mind you!im goin to eat black grapes.
bye.
i did a rough sketch at 11:43 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
scratch out everything i said before.
managed to grab three hours of sleep before heading off the holland v.ate at crystal jade.pigs please.went to look round all those funny shops they have there.pretty interesting if you ask me.da pablo.followed by swensens.are we good or what?waffle was pretty good.and we drew lots fer our small little xmas present thing.we're crazy.
there's so much to say.but i just cant say it all.its killin me.im too distracted to blog now.
goodbye.
i did a rough sketch at 10:38 PM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
lifeless.loss of appetite,no apparant reason.everything's changin.am i about to lose something?
745pm.
i feel as though time's runnin out.
im a fuckin faggot.i cant even express myself.do i alwaes have to resort to my fuckin blog?im a faggot.a fuckin big faggot.ya that's me.and i cant even type coherently on my blog.faggot.labelled.faggot.
im sorry.
my heart aches.and im the only one who knows why.faggot.
imissyou.
and ive never felt like tad before.talk bout being empty.im empty.
fuckin empty faggot.
i did a rough sketch at 7:18 PM
im sorry all this hadta happen.
i was so lookin forward to today,just to go out with you.so lookin forward to meetin you.just cause i miss you so so much.i feel as though i haven seen you in ages and i just wana spend abit more time with you.wells,i guess im stuck at home now.
i love you.and im sorry i blew.i hope you'll get through all these quickly.i'll be there fer you.
i'll be there for you
these five words i swear to you.
when you breathe,
i want to be the air for you.
i'll be there for you.
i'd live and i'd die for you,
steal the sun from the sky for you.
words can't say what love can do.
i'll be there for you.
i did a rough sketch at 2:00 PM
early mornin and my nose was running.partially due to the mosquito foggin goin on below.everything was comin into my house and fillin the empty spaces.talk bout diffusion.didnt meet sonn and nicky.wells.wen back to sleep and woke at 130.i would have continued sleepin if not fer the sms.i was havin a dream and a retarded one really.
the day wasnt very fulfilling.lunch,burnt pizza mind you.stayed online till four plus five.there is really nuthin to do online.should i do a new blog temp?o wells.i dont know.and then i slept again.had a bloody retarded dream.was worst than the one in the mornin.and was called a pig wen i was awaken by a telephone call this time.its not my fault i like to sleep is it?last episode of tong xin yuan wasnt wad i expected.quite stupid huh.and den i watched married to the kelly's!yay!havent watched it in wad seems like ages boy!
faggot.just ate cup noodles and some bacon bits.the kitchen has nuthin besides chocolates.spare me please!i think my mum needs to make a trip down to the lovely supermarket.we need a stock up.
and ive discovered tad im not the only boredd retard living on earth,there's still vanessa..and them.
What the world is searching for,
Popular Web Searches :
1. Ugliest Dog
2. Fattest City
3. Fastest Car
4. Smelliest Feet
courtesy of vanessa of cause.knowing her she probably looked one of those up herself.(:
im dyin due to the lack of you*.im missing you.i love you.
good night all.
i did a rough sketch at 12:28 AM
Monday, December 05, 2005
i am extremely extremely boredd.and im online cause...i wonder.
I am a "winter person " unless it's snowing, it sucks
I own over 10 pairs of shoes
My favorite color is something dark
My favorite show is on MTV
I am currently in high school/secondary
I have my drivers license
I have at least one 'x' in my screen name
I have to straighten my hair every day
I need to go shopping
I own over 20 disney movies
I spend over an hour in the morning getting ready
I've seen a live play before
I've been to a concert
I've read all the Harry Potter books
I've seen all the Lord of the Rings movies
I like watching non-fiction movies
I think golf is the wussiest sport
I like getting comments
I haven't missed an episode of The O.C.
I have at least 3 siblings, not including myself
I have a job
I have owned over 50 Beanie Babies
I was more of a Barbie child
I was born in the month of September, or later
I've lived in over 5 houses during my life
I was born somewhere outside of the United States
I sleep with a stuffed animal (pantatt!)
I own a cell phone
I collect something rather out of the ordinary
I love someone outside my family
I own tickets to some kind of seasonal event (sports, etc.)
Surveys really do cure my boredom
I hate when people misspell things
I'm a health freak
I love taking pictures
I love reading
I love eating
I have more than 5 posters on my walls
I like playing board games
I play basketball or softball // baseball
I play hockey or football
I play no sports
Math is my worst subject
I have been baptized
I like water more than pop
I'm obsessed with my mirror
I hate feet
I love Laguna Beach
I have got drunk before
I'd rather watch the Real World or Road Rules
I blog surf when I'm bored
I love Oreos
My pet is my friend
I sleep with more than 2 pillows
I like rap
I like rock
I have never cried during a movie
I hate having to think during summer
I still listen to Backstreet Boys
I like N*Sync better
I believe in ghosts
I'm usually more happy than sad
I usually see at least 3 movies or more a month after the exams that is.
I complain a lot
I own at least 2 coloring books from way back then
I have hundreds of cd's
I own more VHS than DVDs
I like VH1
I enjoy watching old movies
I don't have cable
I've solved a Rubik's Cube
I've played Leap Frog at least once in my life
I'm currently talking to at least 5 people online
I'm talking to less than 5 people online
I'm not talking to anyone
I get easily annoyed
I have a lot of patience
I like babysitting little kids
i told you i was boredd.(i did this ages ago)
1 : Would you marry for money?
no way.
2 : Have you had braces?
nope
3 : Could you live without a computer?
are you kiddin me.no.
4 : If you could live in any past time period where would it be?
i wanted to sae prehistoric times when dinos exist then i realised tad one was already too much fer me to take,and i'll die if i go back in time.90's are perfectly alright with me.
5 : Do you drink enough water?
er i dont think so.
6 : Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?
off.are you nuts.
7 : What are your favorite fruits?
dragonfruit please.and green apples and grapes.
8 : What is your favorite place to visit?
no favorite place.cant think of any.
9 : Are you photogenic?
hell yea!hahahaha.
10 : Do you dream in color or black and white?
color i guess.
11 : Why do you take surveys?
ive nuthin to do online.what else.
12 : Do you drink alcohol?
i think so.hahahahah.yea.
13 : What is the most beautiful language?
erm spanish.or french.makes the person sound hell sexy.im an exception.
14 : Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?
i dont mind both.but sunrises are nicer to look at.
15 : Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?
erm.im fine with it.
16 : Do you want to live until 100years old?
not really.too old.
17 : Is a flat stomach important to you?
hahaha.i guess so.
18 : When you watch movies at home,do you like the lights switched on or off?
it depends.but its off most of the time.
19 : Do you believe in magic?
wells.i dont think so.
20 : Do you like to watch cartoons?
of cause!
21 : At what age did you find out that Santa Claus is fake?
erm.i cant remember.
22 : Do you write poetry?
er no.its madness.i suck at poetry.
23 : Do you snore?
you cant ask me tad.but i dont think so.
24 : Do you sleep more on your back, sides and back.
the options are funny.back,side,back?huh.i sleep on my stomach.
25 : Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
erm.poodle.but a nice one pls.
26 : Are you basically a happy person?
i guess.
27 : How many phones do you have in your house?
2 house and 8 handfones.
28 : Do you get along with your parents?
i get along fine with my mum.
29 : Do u smoke?
not in a million years.
30 : What will you do if you're sad?
sleep.try talkin to someone sometimes.
31 : What do you need most now?
sleep.
32 : What song you listenin to now?
seventy times seven
33:what are you craving for now?
more of you.
i did a rough sketch at 6:54 PM
Sunday, December 04, 2005
and they alwaes tell you to think before you speak.i just told my mum she's sucha nag cause she was tellin me tad i better be ready by 520 or she wont wait fer me,so on and so forth.and wen i saed tad she saed,i found a birthday card yesterdae and you wrote that i was a wonderful mum.haha.the only words that came out of my mouth after was,'well,nobody saed a nag couldnt be a wonderful mum'
that was all i wanted to blog bout.since my day hasnt really started.i woke up at bout er..twleve plus,one.talk bout being a pig pleasee.and i didnt even sleep tad late last night,right.alrighty,im thirsty.
if i was a sunset in the movie,you'd be the background music fer without you,i wouldnt be much.
i love you,and im missing you more than ever before.
alright,im back from a buffet dinner at safra tampines.fucking good with every fuckin food tad makes you fucking full.they had almost every good thing.i was so full i nearly burst i swear.got home.nearly fell asleep.watched wad was left of star awards.and im hungry again.
im hard to please,but so are you.
i've seen more spine in a jellyfish,seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
everyone's caught onto everything i do.
i did a rough sketch at 4:17 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
"Rules of the game. Post 5 weird things or random facts about yourself. Then at the end of the list, 5 names that are in line to do this. Don't forget to leave a comment 'You have been tagged' in their blogs to read yours."
#1 i like my pantatt and i hug and kiss it to sleep every night.
#2 i only played with boys in kindergarden.does it answer all ur questions now?
#3 i used to count sheep every night wen i couldnt get to sleep.i stopped after i found out tad it just kept me up till even later.
#4 i almost got kicked out of school because i marked my height on the wall with a highlighter.they called it vandalism.i called it a dot?
#5 when i drink,i sing maroon 5 really really bad.ask nicky.
the next five unlucky shitheads
claire,gloria,ds,sonn,roseann.
i did a rough sketch at 11:15 PM
i am in a very good mood today.somebody tell me why.im just happy.
woke up at eleven plus twelve and had pizza hut fer lunch.sushi fer tea.and watched that german show.wadeva the title is.it was good,wasnt it.there's something to learn in every movie i guess.badminton was good.im really losing touch cause i was well 'losing'.well at least i'm still able to play.it was an interesting day if you ask me.how many times do you see someone tryin to use a bamboo pole to retrieve a shuttle tad has fallen on the landing outside.thrilled.
thank you fer today.(:
im gettin to be an emo kid.and everyone cant take the new me.wells im sorry.its just so sad to see everyone goin their different way and stuff like tad.and since when was being an emo kid a bad thing eh.emotions are wad makes part of me,i guess.
everything just keeps gettin better.and even words cant describe how im feelin inside.im just so happy.and i dont know.i guess today was really a good day huh.and i didnt even do much.wells,its just the days i guess.starts well,ends well huh.
im loving you more each day.im learnin how to appreciate you more and more.and i never wana forget every moment that we've spent together.i look forward to more.im missing you already,baby.
let every be like our first.(:
but for now,i'll just say i love you.nothing more seems important somehow.and tomorrow can wait come whatever.let me love you forever but right now,right now.
i did a rough sketch at 8:15 PM
fer the past three hours i have been clearing my room.my eyes have been constantly tearing and my nose practically ran away.i will never ever ever wana clear my room in another million years.and it isnt even tad clean anywae.this sucks.and im sleepy,tired.
and i think im goin to try to finish readin tad stupid harry potter.book5.but i really cant be bothered.
i did a rough sketch at 1:50 AM
Friday, December 02, 2005
i'm just in the mood to blog even though i have absolutely nuthing to say.was readin through my archives.feel extremely retarded.my nose is running fer abit fer some reason.i dont know why.it looks like its gona rain.
i guess im gona be spendin the day home today.o wells.think im gona dig out my old vcds watch em.somehow im in the mood fer chic flicks.and i wana watch school of rock now.my past entries saed it was good.haha. or maybe i'll just continue readin harry potter.i forgot the story.o wells.
the sudden urge to blog can be scary.i haven had lunch.so im off to eat cup noodles.and wadeva thingylingy i can find in the fridge.cheers.
there's nuthing in the world that could ever replace you.i love you fer you.(:
i did a rough sketch at 2:47 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
early mornin.pool.home.slept.expo.airport.home.
what an interesting day.i dont know what to say anymore.my ear hurts.
iloveyou.(:
you're just too good to be true.
can't keep my eyes off you,
you'd feel like heaven to touch.
i wanna hold you so much.
at long last love has arrived,
and i thank God i'm alive,
you're just too good to be true,
can't take my eyes off of you.
i did a rough sketch at 11:44 PM