its hard to say.

Thursday, June 30, 2005

your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night.

im back.there are many things to blog bout.but i dont know if i should blog bout all.just stuff tad i wana sae.needa sae.and cant help saeing.

yea first week is almost over.and it sucks big time.im always feeling too darn tired and there's this lack of energy and stuff.i dont wan holidays to end.i dont want school at all.please who wants it.stress.tchers.and everything else tad sucks.the worst part of school though - bio practical.

so nothin too big happened this week.everything was pretty aiight.den wed was horrible.cause it was prac day.bio prac sucks mind you.really it does.esp when u have to cut celery in wierd waes and count beans!like wad the fuck are we doing?countin beans and measuring them.someone tell me.bio prac is stupid.it makes wed pms-y and lousy and bad.i bet the whole class agrees.sighs.

today was aiight.nothing unusual happened.emaths test sucks.i hate it.stupid car rentals.im screwin it all.why why why.did pc during amaths.wen are we ever gona have pc?tads a qs dino asked.eng.got back our orals.im pretty happy wif mine.just gotta work on it a little bit more.hope it pulls my already bad eng up.lit was normal.story telling can be quite enjoyable.bio was supposed to be interesting.fer the first 5 mins.when we were fixing the dna lookin thing.the debate sucks and its so darn dumb.wad the hell.ms ng is so damn touchy and i cannot understand why.not every comment i made is meant fer you.im sorry if you're not happy with that

i dono why but im quite pissed now.

something i just wana say.sometimes people should noe the limit wen they make fun of others.they should try to be more self-aware and realise tad too much may make people feel super irritated and annoyed.you think its funny but guess what.its not.and its not funny when you link everything connected to her with me.i hope you get my point.please do cause enough is enough.thanks.

was just in the mood fer a long post.

your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night.this idle hour just wont pass.i've never missed you this much.never thought I would.didn't think you'd feel so far away.your summer perfume is still blowing through this hallway.autumn's amber red shadows dance.i miss our midnight rides on highway 18.18 is gone

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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

stories in our lives, we keep them all inside.

new life.new haircut.new school term.no new friends.~~no new boyfriends.~~how do you like my life?

too much of the same stories in our lives.
i think it's time to change, don't you?
i think it's time for us to walk away from here.

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Sunday, June 26, 2005

its 7hrs 50mins till school tomorrow.fuck.

fate fell short this time.
your smile fades in the summer.
place your hands in mine.
i'll leave when i wana.

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how long i'll wait just to say goodbye.

only three days im gone and so many things happened.wad the hell is wrong wif this world.lets hope everythin'll be well.when its over.this shows how much life can actually suck.but i guess you've just got to get over it.life's a bitch sometimes.

there's just some stuff which you can take.and others whichy you cant.maybe im just being over petty and over sensitive bout this issue but i guess its gotta stop beofre i burst.i really dont appreciate it.rite ming.yea i dont.its just too dumb.maybe i should just mellow down or something.i've got nuthin to sae bout it.

my stomach is topsy turvy and its time fer the toilet.plus i need to shower.tuition is at three.argh.and the time is 224pm.im good.wad can i say.shit.

last day of holidays today.im gona slack like some mad dog.spiderman is on tonight.aiight.im watchin it.kinda forgot wad the movie's bout.ok tomorrow's back to school.boy!life sucks.

Leaving all the fights and all.Summer’s getting colder.Drive all night to hold you tight.Back to California.Days went by.We waited and I guess we’re getting older.We couldn’t win in the end.

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Saturday, June 25, 2005

stayed together for the kids.(long enough)

im back from kota tinggi.the trip was aiight.not good.not bad.jus aiight.rainforest indeed.kinda got bites from i have no idea wad.food was kinda good.sleep was okay.though i had to take some sort of "sleepin" pills cause i couldnt get to sleep.according to mum..its due to ur wierd sleeping hours tad now ur whole body system is all haywire..i kinda agree.but it shouldnt be tad bad..right.nothing much on the trip.nothing much to blog bout tad.

wells.everything's passing kinda fast.after ten long yrs of not talkin and communicating.they're finally filing fer a divorce.its good.im happy.he's shifting out.she's good with it.i personall think tad this is a mighty good idea.all the plans started on the day we left.i hope its for real.she saed its something off her mind.and she's super happy bout the good news.good start fer the hols.im happy when she is.weekend access which i think i'll pass.i hope i can pass it.tads all bout it.lets live life one day at a time.(:

i cant wait fer batman.(:

The anger hurts my ears.been running strong for seven years.rather then fix the problem.they never solve them.it makes no sense at allI see them everyday.we get along so why can't they.if this is what he wants.and its what she wants.then whys there so much pain.

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

holding on until the end.

i'll be gone tomorrow morning at eight.how nice.holidaes are ending.but im starting mine.to kota tinggi.o wells.just try to have much fun as possible i guess.yea.i chargin my zen and hopin it doesnt run out of battery during the trip.i need music.its a long ride there and back.wells at least i'll be able to catch up on my sleep.rite rite.and i'll be back on sat.tads like im left with one more day to complete wadeva.so means tad some homework wont be completed.and tad would be bio and sji paper two cause its so damned bloody hard.argh.heck.i know.everyone's saein "manda bio is ur only sci".i noe but yea.its like a so wad kinda thing.i dont feel motivated fer bio.and i gotta buck up on my lit.i really need too!actually i need to buck up on everything.

once school term starts its back to full time muggin and stuff.all the damned "stress".fuck.okay except fer next friday.im gona watch batman!i have to watch tad show.cause he is my favourite super hero afterall.heh.im a loyal fan okay.well and friday is like one day out of a week.im sure i can use the rest of the time to study.i must be more discipline...when school reopens.

okay den.till sunday.i'll see yer'll and i wont have pictures cause i aint go no camera.fuck.

leave it all the fights and all.summer's getting colder.drive all night to hold you tight.back to California.days went by we waited.and i guess we're getting older.we couldn't win in the end.you're gone.

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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

ironic.
it's meeting the man of my dreams.and then meeting his beautiful wife.

im online.charging my zen so i gotta leave the computer on fer the next three plus four hours.damned.you know something maybe i should just go get the adaptor.but then again i can only get tad wen im free and i dont happened to be free till..a long time away.sighs.

its really boring staying at home.doin nothing.i try studying n i still got work to do.but there's a time fer a break.or i'll go mad.so while waiting.i blog surfed.and did some rather amusing quizes.rather wierd.heh.and im now talkin to gen.the frog.lol.

a blog bout my childhood.
i pretty much liked my childhood.it would have been even better if i stopped giving things up halfway.but its over and all i have left now are pretty memories.pretty good ones mind you.
half my childhood was spent in aussie.until i had to come back fer kindergarden.damned damn!so wad did i do there?haha.i did everything a child did there.played.had fun.learn swimmin.by bein thrown into the damned pool and struggling.then there was learning how to cycle.tying my shoelace on the doorstep of my grand-aunt's house.playin with their dogs.alfie and candy or smth like tad.candy was blind mind you.and alfie was adorable.the kids there were cool.didnt used to speak like how i m now.i used to speak proper and nice english.im speakin with "la"s and "leh" now.its detestable.but that's how singapore rubs off on yer.i remember learnin the piano there.and a whole lotta other stuff.and i got my first starwars figurine in aussie.r2d2.and tads how i started to like star wars.played like nobody's business back den.it was really lots of fun.and the food was gooooooooood!
i remeber abit of singapore though.haha.i..er..had lotsa fun in kindergarden.and i learned about walt disney in singapore and loved lion king.knew all bout walt dinsey.well.tads bout it.i continue learnin piano but cant remember wen i gave up.got some award fer swimmin but decided tad it was too borin.gave up.had trillions of softtoys mind u.and a giant gorilla.
travel halfwae round the world wen i was a kid.had freaking lots of stamps and visa.my parents were rich i think.lol.so much money.brought me to america.different parts.and den aussie.and hongkong.here and there.good life.small kid.
i wish i could go back.aussie would be a dream.(:

now isnt it ironic.dont you think.its like rain on your wedding day.its a free ride when you've already paid.its the good advice that you jsut didnt take.who would have thought..it figures.

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Sunday, June 19, 2005

should i stay or should i go?

feelin kinda mixed up and wierd now.o wells.im not supposed to be online now but i am.wells.i need more self disciplne.right.

today's father's day.i haven been celebrating tad fer a gizillion years.i dont even wana talk bout it.sighs.but as usual.we went to church.den wen fer lunch.den came home fer like a tiny well.changed and left fer tuition.had fun at tuition.wif abit of maths and den taking songs to be put into my zen from my tutor.and discussin on whu's hot and who's not.heh.wif my tutor mind you.thats good enough fer me.we came to a conclusion that shu qi and angelina jolie and cant remember are pretty good.heh.im listening to all his old and nice slow songs now.i think im growin old too.my gosh.songs by sarah mcaughlin and then there's alanis morrissette and carpenters and michael learns to rock.oh man.but they're just so soothin and nice.a break from the usual loud music.yea its funky.and den there's some chinese songs tad he gave me.the f4(god!) and the tuo diao.haha.tad song is hilarious.

life is wierd.im aware that i alwaes spell the word wierd wrongly.but wads wrong wif it.it is wierd.and maybe im wierd.but i know that the great world out there hardly gives a shit bout yer.why bother so much on wad others think bout you huh?my tutor told me tad he and his gf thought i was "sae?" or "say" or however u spell it.its supposed to be good?haha.o wells.who cares now?cheers everyone.and peace.

i'm living proof about what love is about.
its hard holding you.loving you.losing you.its sad to be true and be fooled by you.i dont know.i gotta know.should i stay or should i go.

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Friday, June 17, 2005

if i told you this was killing me,would you stop.

okay todae was kinda fun.woke up at ten.felt super bad and i slept till one.can u believe tad.gosh.i was feelin so bad in the mornin.damned.i hope tad doesnt happen anymore.

spent the dae with an old friend.heh.met at bout two plus.i was obviously late.sorry bout it.den we went to play pool at some super duper unknown place.but no one goes there and its supposed to be cheaper den the rest.aiight den.after a few games of pool and lots of argument bout the placement of the balls we decided to stop playing and go hung round somewhere.decided on
the club behind parkmall.somethin called the legend or smth.its damn cool and has great air-con facilities.i love that place boy!talked.made paper aeroplane out of paper cup.played wif fones.snapped pictures.
walked to cine after tad and we were just in time to catch the show.they were till showin ads.and i found out tad downfall is nc16.how to watch.i'll think of sneakin in.since i did tad before.shouldnt be a problem so yea.mr n mrs smith was kinda good.i think brad pitt and angelina jolie are like so hot.i like angelina jolie.she's got damn alot of sex appeal.i feel so lesbanic now.heh.the show ended bout 730pm.everywhere was packed wif people so we couldnt find a place fer dinner.ended up walkin round town fer one hr plus before we settled fer marche.its been a long time since i ate there.ate rosti wif cheese sausage and shared a crepe wif a nice lemon lime drink.o god.food is good.after dinner walked around at the heeren shops fer a while.tried lookin fer my sweater to no avail.
mum picked me up at ten outside park mall.was late and had to walk throught the small bushes.bloody embarrassing.haha.wells.at least im back home now.im thirsty.

aiight off the write a testi now cause i just got one.heh.tuition tomorrow is changed to sun.mum's not gona be home tmr and im stuck wif my bro.how fun!

shut your mouth.burn your bridges.throw your words like an attack and stab me in the.wait a second.wait a second.what's that i just heard.nevermind it's obviously worthless. now you're standing on your soapbox yelling from the rooftops.everything you say is a lie.

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

yesterday's feelings.

second post fer todae.okay so the bbq was aiight.the turnout was shit but i guess it was fun in its own kinda wae.we had chit-chats.talked bout all those stupid stuff.funny and hilarious.gen is slow.tads all i can say.was a pretty good start since the fire i made was good!like damn good!cooked the food.sat round the table and talked till god noes.we were like ij students of the not-tad-round table.lame i noe but yea.

om my gosh!do u noe on the wae back.my mum stopped in the middle of the road all because she was tellin me how ridiculous the car beside ours looked.cause the driver installed this compass thing and it was luminious.and she was like "look look so crazy" and it was green light and our car was the only one among all the lanes not moving.so embarrassin!

im havin a throbbin headache now.i dont know why and i think im gona have a sore throat.my gosh.is this wad bbqs do to u?seriously.im gona go watch mrs and mr smith or is it mr and mrs smith.yea but u guys noe.tad show rite.yea.gona catch it tomorrow.heard its good.

there's only one week left till holidays end.i dont know if i spent it in the right kinda wae.but o wells.no point cryin over spilled milk.just make the best of wads left now.did i tell yer guys im gona be goin to kota tinggi fer a 3 daes chalet next week.not exactly lookin ferward to it.but wells.three daes with my bro(o god!) and my mum.
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okay we are at gen's house.stoning and laughin at the stupidest stuff around the world.i have a mossie bite on my forehead.darn.all of us here are talkin rubbish n eating twisties.yeah!i have like no inspiration to blog.gen's choosin her clothes now and everyone's helping her.yea.

if school had a tatler this would be the probable headlines:
- ugly ******* breaks up with s***e gf.
- long distance romance going on for longer than we expected!
- girls featured in mild porn website. extra: pictures included!
- pam anderson breaks up and patches back in one month
ij girls breaks up and patches back in half an hour!
- girl caught hounding seat outside thawfeek muslim food store.
- jurassic park comes to ij.
get free miniature t-rex figurine today.beware,it pms-es!
- william hung imposter spotted in zouk grooving heavily to "hey baby"
- ij girl makes first appearance in ms universe.
read michelle law's archives for more details.
- president of horny club makes a comeback in the viagra business.

credits michelle law.dalvin and i.

haha.okay that was all so random.hope u guys had fun reading it.now i have to go and prepare fer the class bbq.(:

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i knew we didnt have much time.
what i didnt know was that we had that little time.

nobody said it was easy.
noone ever said it would be so hard.
but guess wad.
there's no time to go back to the start.

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

everything is gona be aiight.

im seriously darn tired.i kinda just woke up.and i feel like sleepin again.today is so not a good day.anyway michelle law gen and i went to play pool.i really suck at pool wen i dont have my cue.or maybe i just suck.omg but u noe something.i cut the ball so beautifully at certain angles today.im so proud.even though i lost(wen all my white balls kept goin into the hole) i felt like i won.quite happy with tad.shows tad i improve.(: i'll be goin back to monster on friday again.we'll see if i improve again or not.den we wen to eat at the foodcourt downstairs casue dalvin joined us.ate some beef thing that was so totally yummilicious!must eat it again.heh.den i ate my wonderful yami yougart.tad is like heaven!and it just tastes so freaking good.everybody must go and try it.

ok thats the end of my day.pretty boring is it.but im so freaking tired.like i feel like goin back to sleep again.sheesh.yellowcard's violin play is just so freaking powerful.love it.

think about the love inside the strength of heart.think about the hero saving live in the dark.climbing higher through the fire.time was running out.never knowing you would be coming out alive.but you still came back fer me.you were strong and you believed.everything is gona be alright.be strong.believe.

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

i feel so.

today sucks.for one ele and i stood at the damned axs station fer an hour tryin to book a freaking damn chalet and we fucking failed.fuck it.wells at least the good thing was i had lunch at crystal jade.with mich.was wanting to have a good lunch fer a while.the first part of lunch really sucked cause i had calls msges coming in every 5 mins and i always had to stop the conver.and tad just sucks boy!den i wen fer tuition which was aiight i guess.i did stuff and managed to get graph paper from my tutor.i've gotta finish my graph qs later.fuck it.

my bro told me tad rush hr 2 was tonight but it wasnt.he mistook it fer next week.fuck.so there's nuthin to watch.im gona do all my graph.watch tv.wake up tomorrow.and its time to seriously wake up.try to hit the books.but im gona slack.yer noe i realised tad i do alot during the hols previously like in sec 3 or smth.badminton training.goin out to catch couple of movies.slackin so totally.this hols sucks.its the worst.im like stuck at home somehow.seniors juniors friends askin me to go out.and i can only make room fer...none..this whole thing is gettin on my nerves.im so pissed.fuck it!

ok enough of me rambling.i wish someone was here right now.dammit.im goin off now.i guess i've broken the record.i haven played yahoo pool fer the whole of today.maybe tonight.i'll be stayin up late again.anywae.

mum's coming back home tomorrow!yeah!

sometimes i wish i was brave.i wish i was stronger.wish i could feel no pain.wish i was young.wish i was shy.i wish i was honest.i wish i was you not i.cause i feel so mad.i feel so angry.Feel so careless.So lost confused.Feel so cheap.So used unfaithful.Let's start over.SometimesI wish I was smart.I wish I made cures for how people are.Wish I had power.Wish I could give.Wish I could change the world.For you and me.Cause’ I feel so mad.I feel so angry.Feel so careless.So lost confused.Feel so cheap.So used unfaithful.Let's start over.Let's start over.

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

can i be your memory?

i've got my zen!yeah!im happy.since they didnt have much colors to choose from i've got myself somethin black and yellowy.if there's a word like tad.im kinda happy and cool with it.only thing is it takes ages to get charged!6 hours or something on my computer.thanks mich fer goin with me.although u've gotta thank me fer puttin u up at my house.heh.enjoy ur ipod.

anywae i must thank those we send me songs.yea.esp my favourites!sugarcult and all!yea.o wells.im so excited.i've decided to blog once in two days starting next week.so yea.means i'll only come online once in two days.tad'll help me.i hope.

my mum's away on hol with my bro.there's only me in the house.sighs.i miss my mum already.(:

its left with lit and bio.lit is damn hard and i dont get it.bio just sucks.don think im gona finish it.is there any use even if i finish it?is there?

its not tad i dont wana talk to you.its just tad we havent had any communication fer so long i dont know how to.everytime i think bout it.u noe smth.u owe me.right? i dont know.im sorry i cant be perfect.

*i'll be happy as long as you are.are you happy?

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Friday, June 10, 2005

cut my life into pieces.

i'm gettin a zen.im happy.but somehow i feel kinda bad.fuck it.its ex and stuff but yea.im gona treasure it ferever.i hope.goin tomorrow to get it with mich.okay.its zen micro or zen neon.i need advice please.

im addicted to yahoo pool.my god.and i only used to play it in...sec 1!
hist i need to finish you soon!

i hope you're as happy as i m!

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

not like yer to say sorry.wanna swing on a different story.

wells the day started with bio lesson.ms ng was late.yea.we thought she forgot bout class.bio lesson was aiight.(like tad lor kinda thing)though we had some pretty interesting conversations and stuff.was kinda farny.michelle law and i.making stupid comments.thank god ms ng didnt hear some.sont worry we werent bad-mouthing her or anything.

den i wen to meet darling majo.and i found out she's got a freaking ipod.the whole world's gettin/already has an ipod.wad the hell!hers is pink.we went to thomson plaza.had nice chickeen rice.bumbed into mrs matthews.her grandson and carrie's sis.rented vcds.freaky fri and the sisters.bought peach halves and walls ice cream.cool huh!

went back to majo's place.watched freaky friday first since we wanted to wait fer mich to come watch the horror show with us.freaky friday was pretty aiight.kinda farny and stuff.mich was buyin her ipod.sighs.i want to get my zen.but i guess its too expansive.i shall wait.heh.so wen she finally came she woke poor shane up.wad an ass.we had peach halves and den we watched sisters.was a stupid show with a stupid storyline and it wasnt tad scary.o wells.bad pick.

lazed around fer quite abit.i swear russell peters has gotta be the farniest comedian boy!he's fuckin good and he's so darn farny.like wad the hell.i was laughing my head off!he's bloody good!more of him would make my day!heh.

so tads how my day went.know i've to finished my history homework which i failed to finish during bio cause i decided i was gona be good and pay attention.wells with the measly others tad turned up.

why is it that everytime you make me feel dumb and stupid you always do something to make me not hate you again.is it good or what?i dont know.but you're wierd.though i must thank you somehow.i hope yer appreciate it someday.

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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

i cut my hair finally.i dont see the diff.but wells.

there's bio tomorrow.shit.
good nite.

i had a picture of you in my mine.
never knew it'll be so long.
why it took me so long just to find a friend that was there all along.
save tonight and fight the break of dawn.
come tomorrow.
tomorrow i'll be gone.

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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

im scared of everything.
this sucks boy!
please make me wake up soon.
fuck.

i need a haircut.quick.tomorrow sounds like a good day fer one.

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everything is beautiful

just finished lunch.had cup noodles with a little bit of hotdog tad kinda exploded in my micro-oven thing.and abit of mushrooms with cheese.thank you.a simple meal but it tasted great.(:

i've to start doing my homework or im never gona finish it.there's so many things to do and so little time.and the sji amaths paper is so difficult.sighs.and there's still tons of homework untouched.i dont even have enough time to study boy!

i still wana play my pool.and go out and watch batman.and sleep.and read.and laugh.and cry.i wana do everything.but there's just so little time.sighs.

if the lord brings you to it,he'll bring you through it.(:

i missed out my eng vocab.my english has gotta suck.thank god fer dictionaries and people like ms teo.(: back to eng vocab exercise 33.yea!2 more exercises to go!let's move it!move it!

*im worry i wont see your face light up again.even the best fall down sometimes.even the wrong words seem to rhyme.or even if the stars refuse to shine.out of the doubt that fills my mind.we'll somehow find.you and i collide.i hope so.you make a first impression.(:

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Monday, June 06, 2005

hope dangles on a string.

today i wen pool-ing with wei xin gen and michelle law.was fun.i havent pooled in a long time.i lok forward to the next pool match.i told yer'll it was addictive and fun.
michelle law likes to jump balls.wei xin moves the cue stick every second.it cant seem to stay at a place fer more den a second.gen is pretty good.
played fer like two hours and im proud to say i emerged victorious.rather victorious i must say!

wells anywae i got to eat my peach frozen yougart.ate burger king.octopus balls.and the omelette fried noodles tad i shared with gen.was good food.food glorious food!and i've had this craving fer coke fer the whole day.i dono why.

there are 3 weeks left of the holidays.3 more weeks left to mug hard.3 more weeks left to finish all my homework.3 more weeks left to play hard.3 more weeks left to have fun.3 more weeks left to mrs kunna telling us tad we only have bout 2 more months to prelims.3 more weeks left to wake up and face reality.all in 3 weeks.

i suppose i've gotta start muggin hard.i dont know how wen ive got this whole bunch of homework to finish.and i dont know where to start catching up from.im so lost..and lonely.

*when i fall i dont wana feel this small.i know i just cant handle this.handle this at all.and so i fall.i let my heartbeat drop.i falter as the music stops and you watch me as i stall and wonder when i...see yer soon.(:

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Sunday, June 05, 2005

it's about saving kids' lives.

im back from famine camp.a 30 hour famine camp.wad can i say?i did it!it was aiight.there were good times and bad times.laughter.joy.fun.after this camp i think my life will most probably be different.it'll changed.somehow.

we had three topics.hunger.proverty.aids/hiv.
we spent one whole day going through this activites which was mostly fun and abit dirrty.but wells i guess i enjoyed myself.we did everything in three parts.the awareness part.sharing part.the experiencing part.videos were shown n i saw the unpleasant places in which human beings - kids live in.it was totally gross and inhumane.tad was poverty.
then we saw how people starved going without food fer bout two days.in the end their food was like wad..one small tiny bit of corn which wont even fill 1/100 of ur stomach.tad's hunger.
then we saw people dying every second.every minute.every day.like bout 250,000 people die every hour or smth like tad.due to aids.the situation arises cause of povertty and hunger.and we learned how to be more aware of hiv+ people's needs and understandings.and there you go.that's hiv/aids.
the games went on.with snatching cardboards and plastic sheets to build shelter to carrying people on ur backs to collect water to fill a bottle.plastacine sculptures.poster making.
obviously much more happened.we walked round the track at night.sat at the bench chatting.washed up but not shower.tad kinda thing.
and tad's the end of day one.

next day we had worship in the lecture theatre.was aiight.with a few cockroaches appearing here and there.actually there were only two.but wells.den we headed to tampines fer newspaper collection.the collection was good.didnt expect so many people to actually save their old clothings and newspapers fer us.was rather tiring.my feet were aching and we had no food.but it was a good experience.and somehow or the other it was kinda fun.i think i liked it the best.gretchen and i slept like everytime we hopped onto a bus or the mrt.gretchen goh has very bad sleeping habits!
got back to campus and tads where the bad part comes in.we were talkin crap and drinkin our sugary drinks(sorta lunch kinda thing) and i kept a bottle of water in my bag.same compartment as handphone and mp.now u can guess wad happened.sighs.my fone is aiight now.tho abit shitty and fainty color.i just haf to make do.thanks to monica's advice and abit of help from gretchen pet aL(for fanning my fone.(:) mich n so on.we were waiting fer the famine concert to start.so we played cards.talked more crap.and more crap and more crap.i swear gretchen and i laughed till the sky came down.and we not only lost weight during the camp we laughed so much we gained abs!heh.
famine concert was aiight.good.we had people performing.dancers were like omg kinda.they were just damn pro la.den they had this band performing accoustic.recluse or smth like tad.they were pretty good.we had more dancers.and a small little talk bout a concert coming up soon with bands from overseas at fort canning.im quite keen on goin.watched some videos and looked at the snapshots they took during camp.thank god the picture of me holdin the stupid stick wasnt there but we still got caught on tape quite abit.
when we finally break fast it was like heaven boy!food is good.i felt like oliver twist.food glorious food!we'll all be seeing food in a different light from now on.heh.everyone was like diggin into the sponsored nasi lemak.
and tads the end of our 30 hour famine camp.

thanks to world vision fer the blasting cool shirts they gave us.i dono why but i like it damn alot.im wierd.
thanks to gretchen goh.my team mate.we laughed till we almost cried got abs and fell asleep.and we talked so much cock and i swear she was gona explode.although gretchen has a deprived childhood and an equally depriving teenhood lets not forget she's a fastpoke.(inside joke.)
thanks to mich ah wee pearl aL huay shan pet terri(fer making my towel wet and heavey) monica and the sec3 arc gals fer making the camp wad it was.without you guys things would definitely be diff.
last but not least we have to thank our ever so goondu camp leaders.i'll help c20 thank their group leader too.we're never gona forget those two boy!they're hilarious.haha.in a different way.
overall the camp was a good learning experience.it taught us how to appreciate things more and made us aware of the greater needs of others.to share care and think of others.i will definitely be looking forward to the next famine camp.
famine camp 2006 here i come!

wish fer you on a falling star.wondering where you are.do i ever cross your mind in the warm sunshine.(:

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Friday, June 03, 2005

theproposal song.tonight?

today was aiight.i was late fer bio.i was gona be early k.but the bus uncle.sighs.shant talk bout it.but wad the hell!he drives so slowly.alamak uncle.bio was aiight too.didnt do much.copied the answers to midyrs.heh.and we were talkin crap.laughin.and maybe it was kinda fun.a little bit.
hid from mrs kunna.haha.was quite difficult.considering the fact that she kept walkin back!omg.hope she doesnt read this.highly unlikely.wen to the hall.played on the scooter and tried jumping.i suck at it.dammit.laughin at ado in her jumpers.haha.
den was bout to go home.and darling ms ng was kind enough to give us[alicia and i] a lift to tp.alicia was calling me an ass.wad the hell.owells.had to carry ms ng's stupid heavy pink bag to the front cause she was too lazy to do it herself.was talkin and playing a fool in the car.and class 95 sucks.they stole all ur good djs!and made them into whiny old men!and woman!was damn farny.tad car ride.and wad did we end up doing in the car park?throwing tad stupid paperball at each other!and making me throw it away!darn.funny funny.
car rides are cool.we should have more cars so we can have more rides.heh.random thought.(:

ive been online ferever.i swear im using my neighbour's wireless from somewhere!haha.i'll use a different one a day.then it wouldnt be that bad,would it?

is it really happening to me.or am i still asleep.are you just a figment of my imagination.could this be real.or is it just a fantasy.its been so long that i had to tell you this.i've been waiting for so long for you to come and be with me now.i'll say i'll be true to you and to the one who gave you to me.(:
*thanks.it was really great.im happy today.and i dont know why.we should do this more often.then maybe i'll be happy more often.(:

i did a rough sketch at 3:34 PM

Thursday, June 02, 2005

theproposalsong.

four words.
im dreading bio tomorrow.
now three.
this really sucks.
another two words.
big time.
one more to go.
fuck.

i did a rough sketch at 10:23 PM

i've been waiting for so long for you to come and be with me now.(:

im feeling so random now.
imissyer'llalready!

i have nothing to blog bout actually.
life's a bore.
i'm off to doing my homework soon and readin da book.
im dammit hungry.
i've got no lunch.fuck.

im pretty sure i'll be back online tonight.crap.

is this really happenning to me?am i still asleep?are you just a figment of my imagination?now is this real or is this just a fantasy?just a fantasy of mine?
*its time to let go now.im feeling kinda confused.but i'll still be there.though i know you dont need me.knew it right from the start.i dont know why i even tried.myabe because im just sweet!(:

i did a rough sketch at 10:08 AM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

its not a question but a lesson learned in time.
its something unpredictable but in the end thats why
i hope you have the time of your life.

tigger is back in the house now!i like tigger.thanks to ms teo during ij jeartbeat.heh.im at nicole moosa's house now.with lalee.im so darn tired now.thanks to the monopoly session we had in the morning.
yea talkin bout it.majo's chalet rocked.firstly cause i got to see my beloved deary avril hong!havent seen her in sucha long time and yea.its great that we finally met up after all her trainings and commitments and this and that.i'm so glad i gotta catch up with her.talk to her.laugh together with her.(: and talk bout the "those were the days" stuff and things like that.i so miss her..so so so so much!the saddest part was when avril had to go.and we swore we'll meet somedae in 06/07?just somehow.probably in that big big dreamhouse of majo's with our different flavoured we-know-whats!we hugged so many times and so tightly.i never wanted to let go.i felt..sad.and when we finally let go.we turned around and hugged again.and the fotos tad we took.i swear its gona be on my wall.my everywhere.its gona be us ferever.and i thought we all had moved on with our own friends.our own life.but guess wad.i think so part of us just cant let go.
back to the chalet.we ate.we messed round.we pooled at the very lousy pool table there.i had a car race thanks to ah wee.then we headed back and i ate again.more like we ate again.yummie.ate and talked and laughed.and stared at butches and their girlfriends fighting.boyfriends and their girlfriends hanky-pankying.den we played cards.name game and bluff.got sick of it coz my name was very easy to say shaun smth.and the rest were like hard excpet alan smith.darn!one or two games of heart attack.den we turned to monopoly.played till three plus.quarrelled and laughed bout the beds till bout 4?and den everyone finally fell asleep.thank god for that.woke up at like 645 and i was like dying.
went fer emaths and i really couldnt take it.neither could bird or lyn.we were dying.so bird and i did something naughty.which i aint gona write here cause i know that people read this.heh.didnt absorb much.told yer guys we should have just ponned it.
okay i gotta get started on my homework soon.and i just borrowed da vinci code from nicole.i forgot the story and i guess i need to read more.andi didnt even finish readin the book the last time.dont worry i can multitask.i'll get my homework done also.i hope.(:
im hungry.maggi mee.yum yum.i'll catch all of yer later.

hey there the angel from my nightmare.the shadow in the background of the morgue.the unsuspecting vctim of darkness in the valley.i hope you're doing aiight now.i dont care much...fer now!heh.(:

i did a rough sketch at 3:54 PM