its hard to say.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

letsallbeproactive.
andnotreactive.
please.

i did a rough sketch at 5:11 PM

Friday, April 15, 2005

Whatever poisons in this bottle.
will leave me broken, sore and stiff.
But it's the genie at the bottom who I'm sucking at,
he owes me one last wish.
So here's a present to let you know I still exist.
I hope the next boy that you kiss has something terribly
contagious on his lips.

But I got a plan (I got a plan)
To drink for forty days and forty nights
A sip for every second-hand tick
And every time you fed the line,
you mean so much to me?
I'm without you

Tell all the English boys you meet.
about the American boy back in the states.
The American boy you used to date.
who would do anything you say.
Tell all the English boys you meet .
about the American boy back in the states.
The American boy you used to date.
who would do anything you say.

And even if her plane crashes tonight.
she'll find some way to disappoint me,
by not burning in the wreckage,
or drowning at the bottom of the sea.
Jess, I still taste you, and thus reserve my right to hate you.
And all this empty space that you create.
does nothing for my flawless sense of style.
It's 8:45 (it's 8:45), the weather is getting better by the hour.
(rains all the time).
I hope it rains there all the time.
And if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied.
I'm without you.

Tell all the English boys you meet .
about the American boy back in the states .
The American boy you used to date.
who would do anything you say.
Tell all the English boys you meet.
about the American boy back in the states.
The American boy you used to date.
who would do anything you say,
who would do anything you say.

Never gonna get it right, you're never gonna get it .

Okay no more songs about you. After this one I am done.
You're gone.

Tell all the English boys you meet.
about the American boy back in the states.
The American boy you used to date.
who would do anything you say.
Tell all the English boys you meet.
about the American boy back in the states.
The American boy you used to date.
who would do anything you say.

i did a rough sketch at 10:30 PM

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

and this time i fall.
and i wonder why.
den i figured it out.
and somehow..
somehow..
i want you to fuckini burn in hell for this shit.

juz a random thought.
over the weekends.

hey dad.
im writing to you.
~~not~~ to tell you that i still hate you.
but to ask you how you feel.
how we fell apart.
how this fell apart.
are you happy out there in this great wide world?
do you think about your son?
do you miss your little girl?
when you lay out there.
how do you sleep at night?
do you even wonder if we're alright.
but we're alright.
but we're alright.
its been a long hard road without you by my side.
why werent you there all the nights that we cried.
you broke my mother's heart.
you broke her feelings for life.
but its okay.
cause we're all right.
~~i remember the days you were a hero in my life.~~
but those were just long lost memories of mine.
now im writing just to tell you that im still alive.
im still alive.
sometimes i forget.
~~but this time i'll let live.~~
coz i miss you.
i miss you.
*i hope you burn in hell fer this shit too.
coz i fuckin hate you.

i did a rough sketch at 12:17 AM

Friday, April 08, 2005

happybirthdaytoyou.(:
its a good day today.aint it?(:

everything's so blury
and everyone's so fake.
everyone's so empty
and everything is so messed up.
preoccupied without you.
i'll never let you go.
my whole world stumbles round you.
and you watch me as i fall.

you can be my someone.
you can be my scene.
you know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene.
i wonder what you're doing.
i wonder where you are.
the ocean in between us
but that's not very far.

its really a random thought.

i did a rough sketch at 9:32 PM

Thursday, April 07, 2005

one more day.
imonlyhappyforyou.(:

ireallydontunderstandlife.
reallyreallydont.
cansomeonehelpme.
soon.

i did a rough sketch at 10:21 PM

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

iamhappytoday.(:

its 2 more days to the big day.
and guess what.
icantwait.(:

i did a rough sketch at 6:39 PM

Sunday, April 03, 2005

i have looked for you.
and now you have come to me.

i did a rough sketch at 11:08 PM

Friday, April 01, 2005

and so i fall.
i dont wana feel this small.
you know i just cant handle this.
handle this at all.
and i just fall.
i let my heartbeat drop.
i falter as the music stops.
and you watch me as i stall.
and wonder when i fall.

go on you've kept me waiting.

today is as depressing as much as i am happy.
i dont get many things.
and some times i feel like falling.
but i am happy.
there's just some bit of wierd thing inside of me which lifts my spirit up.
its been funny.
these days.
they're getting funnier as the days pass.

im not leaving yet jasmine.dawn.
i'll see you guys still.
dont miss me too much.
you still have two more years.
and somehow i envy u..with a certain alarm.

and you.(:
wana get thrashed by me only.
but i'll take you on with arms wide open.
you are who you are afterall.

now i'll see you around.
a happy yet depressing day.

god bless me.
and the pope.

i did a rough sketch at 10:24 PM