andtodayisthedayiconfessedmyloveforyou.(: andiwillrememberitforever.(: somustyou.(: im very happy todae.(:
its time to play pool soon. claire are you gamed?
i did a rough sketch at 7:13 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
iwanttotaketheexpresstrainnow.
i did a rough sketch at 2:24 PM
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
i shall blog bout todae. since it was rather interesting. amaths.lit.chinese. all was pretty aiight. lao shi didnt come. hope her operation thing would turn out fine. lit was good okay.finished the sound of thunder. im amazed at how very fast mrs alex finishes a short story. its really super speed. somethin tad none of the my lit tchers haf achieved over the last 3 yrs. hope her eyes gets well soon. well then we had bio. michelle law,u neednt use a certain tcher. juz sae ms ng.haha. yes she was being lame. she was like gals do u noe the meanin of gene? its not ur "gene" ong or "gene" [cant remember wad surname she used] my gosh she's so lame. and i tot i was bad. so i juz sat at my place.feelin totally lost and shocked and wth-y. so i was already tryin to control my laughter. and there goes. i had to turn my head and look at amanda lim hu happened to be controllin her laughter. and there it wen.. both of us juz bursts out laughin. and everyone was like staring at us like wth are they laughin bout. but it was realli farny la. u should haf seen the expressions on our faces. okay enough of tad. i think i was very cute wen i was young.(: but everyone thinks so.so yea. heheh.im quite. thanks sonn fer showin it to the world. the world does not refer to ms ng ey. my gosh.really darn fuckin annoying. i swear.roseann and i are juz like omg ok bear wif it. seriously.i feel like kickin your arse. den we had cme. where ms yap told us bout time management. orderliness.she made tad word up coz it doesnt exist. and stuff like tad. wells den showed us how grade thing. i realised i did pretty well in sec two as in there were only 2 negatives. heheh.wells.den sec 3 was like disaster. and we had to do this target thing. and den i counted my l1r5 and it was like 7/8 or smth like tad. so i tot tad was like too hard fer me to get. so i changed some grades den i counted again the and this time it was 6. den ms yap was like hurry hurry hand the paper in. so i juz didnt write and l1r5 aggregate down. o no..haha..doesnt matter. no assembly fer us todae. wad spoilers.and i was lookin forward to it. so we had bio prac early and ended early. was pms-ing quite badly during bio. threw the tomato into the air landed somewhere in front near the dutbin. cleared the rest of the mess up. decided tad i should pic the tomato up. chuck tomato in bin. and wondered why the fuck i was pms-ing so badly. anywae im off the eat dinner. my fingers are too lazy to type. the entry is waeeee to long dammit. cheers. song of the dae - carve your heart our yourself.
i did a rough sketch at 8:11 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
carveyourheartoutyourself.
i did a rough sketch at 7:47 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
ok i haven blogged in ages since my com has been so screwd up. and it is still tad screwd up. i haf to restart the com every half an hour. i suggest we get a new com!! ok so the holidaes are almost ending. actually this is the alst dae of the hols. since its a saturdae but o wells. who cares. the week wasnt very fruitful. with all the homework. i sometimes wonder how teachers can ask us to catch up our subjects. homework takes up 95% of our holidae. and cca takes up like....80%-100%. and then we still haf remedial classses and lessons to attend. wad kinda holidae is this man? lets talk bout fri since i haf the most things to blog bout tad dae. wen to skool fer lit. gillian roseann and i were the first to arrive. mrs alex was late. sat round talkin crap. lookin at not-very-cute-guys. lit finally started. finished the most boring story of all times. naema disparue and the pelican. den pizza man called. wen down to collect pizza. actually rie there are 3 persons u all haf to thank fer this pizza thing. 1st person - ms ng afterall she paid most of the pizza. 2nd person - roseann paid like 18+bucks and last and obviously not least - me. heheh.yea me.paid fer the drinks mind you.and like one slice of the pizza.haha.plus i had a hard time orderin pizza coz the guy needed the postal code and our school's postal code is like no where to be found.like fuck.o wells.at least we still got the pizza. so ate pizzas like damned refugees outside the classroom. the smell was good. the drinks was good. everything was good. 64 slices of the pizza all gone can. wei xin and i ate 3.5 pizzas.haha. i was like so je--lat--.please. so den bio lesson preocedded. instead of endin at 2 it ended at 1-1plus. so durin bio lesson. i felt like pool!! so i asked claire and we agreed to go to monster. YES!! pool is good. dragged roseann and lalee along. claire and i opened table and played. im totally hopeless at 8 ball. this is wad u get fer not playin fer so long dammit. tot i was gona win the white dammit ball had to alwaes roll in. wad the shit la. so yea. but i won the 9ball and one hand game. the one hand game was totally farny.stupid.and retarded. yea juz glad we played pool. thanks claire(: after pool roseann and i walked to ps to catch hitch. the show was kinda stupid retarded lame and farny but yea. was alrite i guess. ate my cheesy hotdogs durin the movie. and ps playes very long and HORRIBLE ads. mind u they are the most disgusting ads i've seen in my whole life. so please do not watch movies at ps. haha.wells yea.juz take the damn advice from the experts. so tad was my dae. was pretty good fer a dae i guess as i didnt touch any of my homework. i realised tad i seriously needed to take a break. yes b-r-e-a-k. _____________________________________________________________________ admist the remedial classes.homework.cca.and all sorts of farny things.at least there's still a time fer play.i am utterly bored wen i haf to face my tutors.my tchers.my homework.coach every dae/other dae.its really a dread and it really sucks.something i didnt see happenin in my seniors life.or maybe they were juz too smart and didnt need to study tad much.wells.i dono.really sucks.i wish i could go play POOL everydae.go to town and juz walk round.catch like all the movies i alwaes wanted to catch.but guess wad i cant. once the holidaes end.i wont haf anytime fer anything.its back to the mon wed fri trainin den the tue thurs sat sun tuition.i aint got no time to do nothing.so i guess there goes my pool.i cant wait fer trainin to stop.and den i'll haf 3 daes more to do my own stuff.like study..and actually haf a one dae break to do somethin to relax.pool i hope.haha.im a bloody loser man.alwaes playin pool.i wish i could buy a pool table den i wont need to go to town.(: _____________________________________________________________________ i guess this is enough fer an entry. i hope to update soon if i haf the time. see yer all. p.s.ilovemybestfriend(:[and i mean it please] song of the dae - playing favourites.
i did a rough sketch at 10:42 AM
Thursday, March 10, 2005
Its been a year 2 months and 10 days. My class.
So where is it that we are heading to now? On the edge of the rocky bridge? Right beside the crocodile pool? Really where are we goin people? You're the only ones tad can answer that question.
I know im a fuck.
Cant seem to motivate or help. All im askin fer is tad we put in more effort. Now till the o's. To be more motivateed and work.
Be a little humble and listen. Everything might turn out well then.
People may den change their opinions of us. Effort and hard work is all it takes now. Right? Fuck as long as we do our best and Even wen life's being a fuck. Continue to fight till the end. That's all i ask for...4/4...
i did a rough sketch at 8:53 PM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
its been a long long week so far. i seem to be dreadin every week tads ahead of me. and i don noe why. maybe i do know y. but its juz tad i don wan to face up to it. i guess. im supposed to be'studyin my chinese but i guess i really need to get some shit outta my system. so much fer being focused. there's much i wan to sae.thoughts swirling in my head. but i am limited to how much i can sae on my blog. i haf to be continously reminded tad i haf to be sensitive to others feelins and cannot go round fuckin the free world like how i used to. tads pretty unfair but alrites. lets start. it doesnt matter anymore i guess. i guess everyone in 4/4 would noe wad im talkin bout rite. if u don noe there must be some kind of problem wif u. whether i feel fucked up or whether im not pissed at all. how i feel is not something tad should bother anyone. because maybe it doesnt matter at all. since wen did how i feel matter anywae rite. this is wad it is. everytime everythng seems to be goin smoothly . and u think tad maybe life's gettin better. some fucked up thing will happen. and tad so happens to ruin ur entire already-so-fucked-up life. im not the only one tad feels tad wae. i noe a couple of u do feel tad wae. some things happen fer a reason. so maybe this is one of the things tad happened fer a reason. maybe it was good tad somehting like this happened coz it did make me realise some things. some really stupid things and maybe from now on i'll be on the lookout. coz if things doesnt turn out rite its my fault. if we screwd something up so badly. its my fault. if something goes wrong. its my fault. if things probably turned out alrite fer u but it didnt fer someone else. its my fault. if we didnt participate enough. its my fault. if we're juz too stupid and not as clever as some people are to think of better waes to do stuff. its my fault. if anyone is juz unhappy wif the wae we do stuff. its my fault. and why in the fuckiin hell is it my fault. coz im like chair. im suppose to noe things better den others. im suppose to lead and take charge. and make people do stuff coz they're supposed to do it. but guess wad.guess wad. i cant. there's something called free will. and if people don wan to do it i cant do anything bout it. if people are unhappy i cant change their mind and make dem feel out-of-this-world for somethin they think is pretty fuck. im not complaining all anything. but its juz like tad. so many times i saed things juz don turn out your wae. and its true. so if it doesnt turn out our wae juz take what comes straight at u put it in ur pocket and get on wif life. tads the fuckin lesson tad i've learn. and since den i haven found a better wae to deal wif stuff like these. if u have..please contact me. its not tad im blamin anyone here. so whoever's readin this be it a tcher a classmate a schoolmate or a friend. this is my reflection and wad i feel or think. my head's juz in a total mess and its times like this wen i haf so much to sae. yet i cant sae it or i dono how to. maybe all these happened coz of me. maybe i was being all to fucked up to notice anything. many things should be juz left unsaid. it'll be better this wae. would haf been better if it was like tad from the start. maybe things would haf been so much better. yes im not as daring as others and im no wae confident. coz if u really do noe me[which i highly doubt a single one of you do] im like a really fucked up piece of shit here. i don wan to openly write downw ad i really feel bout this whole incident. i don wan to point fingers and i don wan to sae anything bout hus biased and hus not. [as wad ive seen evident in some other blogs] i must den again try to put myself into other's shoes maybe will i only den understand. but why? why has nobody ever tried puttin themselves into mine? [besides michelle law.but i don mean in tad wae but yea] is it because no one sees the need to or is it because maybe im juz too insignificant and you think you shouldnt be wasting your time on me. do u noe how it is to haf 41 people under u. each wif a perfectly fine and normal brain whcih allows them to think and react and some of the haf such strong reactions and there's sometimes nuthin u can do to stop it. its hard no seriously. talkin bout this i shall digress a little. but it all goes back to one point seriously. everyone voted fer us. and now we are in it. no one bothers to listen. then y the fuckin hell vote fer us. everyone used to think tad it was an easy job. people only noe how to criticize and accuse and wonder y we cant do a proper job. they don noe how it is to handle a whole bunch of "bloody idiots" wen some big events happen. yes they do gif us their full support. but how bout trival matters. like handin something in or like listenin to us. does anyone care. all of them take us fer some bloody idiots. seriously these people should go fuck themselves. i don care how bad this hurts but this is the truth and the truth hurts. i haf many things left to sae. but my head is in a mess. thought are jumpin round here and there like nobody's business. this is how i feel and im not blamin anyone here. please remember tad. this is the last time i hope to be bloggin bout such things. till den. peace out. song of the dae - wonderwall.
i did a rough sketch at 1:35 PM
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