its hard to say.

Sunday, February 27, 2005

yes update.
is this gona be another long post or wad.
i dunno u juz gotta wait and see.
its 1232 on a sundae morning.
and im sittin here wif much things to sae.
am i gona sae em out or m i not.
i haf no idea.
i haven been havin an idea fer a long time and i should seriosly get a brain soon.
the o's are comin.the exams are piling.and tournament isnt stoppin.
we've got into nationals.(:
is it good or bad?
there's one thing i really wana sae and i've juz got to put it down here on my blog.
no matter how hard u try or wad u do.things seriously juz don turn out ur wae.
i've tried my best to do wad i've done but nothing does happen.
its like things are a screw up and u wish everyone dead.
but at the end of the dae no matter how many people died or did not u juz gotta accept it.
its juz like tad aint it.
life's juz like tad.
the past week has been topsy turvy.
wif all the nonsense coming up and all these o's form tad we haf to sign.
i dono wad else more to expect.
mr ng saes the teachers saes our class is changin fer the better.
more motivated and stuff.[im wondering hu saed tad]
tads good aint it.
at least there's a change.
but there are seriously somethings which i don see changing.
and den there are somethings which change drastically.fer i dono wad reason.
y is it like tad?
i dont noe and don think i'll ever find out.
everyone's out there studyin esp those takin their psle o's a's and even n's this year.
all fer one reason.
the get a dammit job somewhere on earth.
in some high-flyin society sittin in some posh office.
hopefully bossin some people around.
earnin some bigger den big bucks.
aint i right?
aint all of u out there studyin fer tad reason..
its a good one by the wae.
it gets u so extremely motivated and it ensures u a sure-pass in ur upcomin major exams.
but y don i haf tad kind of motivation.
y is it i see my ambition runnin in and out of my head like some stupid chinese word tad i cant seem to remember or memorise or wadeva.
someone.please put a bullet through my head.
i feel so un-motivated at times.and i hardly ever feel motivated.
the rest of the other times im juz feelin numb.
many people around me has visions of wad they wan to become.
or at least noe y they're studyin so freakin hard.
toleratin every subject or tcher tads bein a major pain in the ass.
and even if they dono wad they wan to become next time.
they all noe they wan to be someone successful.rich.successful.did i mention rich?
its juz like tad aint it.
esp wif the people in my class.
its 4/4 excuse me.
4/4 has brains hasnt it.all of em has high expectations i noe.
but wad bout me?
im like standin here.
havin no clue at all where im headin.
don even noe if im juz gona end here or keep goin.
life is a roller coaster.
head has just been attacked by a tsunami.
everything is topsy turvy.
will you** give me an answer?
i really haf to noe.
i hope i'll wake up tomorrow and everything'll be diff.
song of the dae - mockingbird.

todae is gonna be the day that we're gonna throw it back to you.
by now you should have somehow realised what you've gotta do.
i don believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now.
and all the roads we had to walk were winding.
and all the lights that leads us there are blinding.
there were many things in life that i would like to say to you.
but i dont know how.
cause baby.
you've got to be the one that saves me.
and afterall.
you're my wonderwall.

i did a rough sketch at 12:31 AM

Thursday, February 17, 2005

wen was the last time i blogged.
haven been coming online as often as last time.
is it a good thing or not?
many things happened and its only thurs.
imagine tomorrow.theres double pc lesson.
lord please save me.
so the results fer the class comm is out.
lets help the class co-orperates wif us.
and im pretty sure 4/4 wont fall in my hands.
i hope.
den we continued from where we left off in self-awareness.
i hope everything is resolved now.
noe we pray fer the better.
wif the upcoming cas and all those kinda shit
life isnt as good.
there's alwaes those stupid chinese CAs.
it really sucks.
and den heard chem was bad.
"perry.carbon dioxide is produced whenever there's carbonate."
bio was...don talk bout it.
it was so damn stupid i mean like wad the hell la.
yvonne ng aint comin to school next week.
o wells.
and roseann yeo and jessica ~~dino~~ tan.
i cannot believe u all did tad.sucks noe u guys.wad the hell.
her reactions were however ten times worst.
its not like i don alreadi feel so demoralised.
you had to rub it in.
is tad all u're good at doin.
if so.please kindly fuck off from my free world dammit.
im still kinda pissed with you bitch/bastard.
sent out those sellin/sponsoring letter.
still no reply.
companies can u reply faster please.
its time.
im really sick wif all these tournament shit.
i feel like quittin badminton.
i somehow lost tad passion to play.
and somehow coach knows.
its juz like tad.
my class is more important den badminton i guess.
how am i gona live life like tad?
anywae tads enough fer a blog fer todae.
i guess i wont be bloggin durin the weekends.
im gona be hell of a fuckin busy.
thanks.
song of the dae - boulevard of broken songs.

i did a rough sketch at 9:37 PM

Sunday, February 13, 2005

i haf exactly 5 minutes to finish blogging.
im too lazy to take off memory from my blog.
u guys would juz haf to wait till i come online the next time.
this weekend has been so unproductive.
my gosh its so damn annoying.
sat was like wake up den wen to my aunts house fer house blessing.
den another aunts house fer my mum's meet-the-sec-school-friends annual meeting.
fine.den dinner was back at my aunts house to celebrate cny n do some lou hai-ing.
wadeva u call it.
okay think im gona exceed the 5 mins but hu cares la.
im in this totally pek cek mood now.fer some reason.
so back to this busy schedule thing.
sundae was worst?
wen to my godma's house fer my mum's meet-the-pri-school-friends annual meetin.
so staed from like lunch till 5?
den wen to hougang coz i needed a popular badly.
had dinner and reached home at 6plus 7.
took a short nap and woke up at 7.30.
studied chinese dammit.and now im online.
its like so unproductive considerin the fact tad we haf 4 CAs next week.
wad the fuck is the school doin to us please.
mon we haf chinese.tues we haf chem.i aint studyin fer tad.wed we haf bio.tad screwd up shit.and thurs we had ss.like wad the hell.
tads left wif fri to rest and den the whole cycle starts again dammit.
gif me a break dammit.
and there's still chocomania to setlte.
and tournament is starting again la.
like please kiss my ass.sick and tired of all these.
so i think its time to get back to the dining table to stone.
but im juz not in the mood too and i wan to sleep.
o dammit.is apprentice on tonite?
fer some reason i enjoy watchin tad show?
but u gotta be kiddin me.its so damn boring.
im gettin the mondae blues wen its only sundae.
god save me.
ok i'll seriously get my ass offline now.
see yer'll round.
peace out.
and i hope tomorrow will be a better day altogether.
song of the dae - dun wanna go.

i did a rough sketch at 9:54 PM

Thursday, February 10, 2005

there's nuthin productive to do at this hour
and therefore im here bloggin.
this has been a very rush rush week.
wif so many things to do.
chocomania.class comm re-election.cny.badminton.and stuff like tad.
chocomania.
some parishioner wrote into ms tan tellin how great the ij gals were.
she praised germaine.go germaine.
tads juz damn cool.
lucky thing the woman hu wrote in didnt tell ms tan bout the singing part.
its so embarrassing.
class comm re-elections.
we re-elected the class comm.
so people u guys better be happy wif the new comm.
other den tad i haf nothing much to sae already.
wad i wan to sae has been saed by so many others.
cny.
didnt do much visiting.
spent the hols sleepin like some pig.
anywae this cny is quite nice and fun.
haha.considering the fact that a group of us wen to mr ng's house.
omg tad was like the funnest house i visted.
but den again i only visited two places before i wen over to mr ng's.
great.we reached his not-very-accesible-flat at 1130.
walked in.greeted mr ng and his wife.saw friends on the tv.
sat on the sofa.started eatin ba kuah.found out mr ng was vegetarian?
counted hu was there and hu wasnt.
looked at the very interesting wedding fotos.
laughed a whole bunch.
and den the fun part came along.
we watched american pie 2.
omg tad show is the horniest thing on earth i swear.
its so damn farny.horny.wierd.farny.horny.
did i mention horny?
and the whole group of us juz sat there watchin tad stupid show.
mr ng ordered pizza and wen the pizza guy came wif some of mr ng's relatives we immediately paused the video coz it was gettin to quite an rA part.
pizza was good.drinks were cool.
den we watched bruce almighty.and yea laughed at the farny parts.
after bruce we juz sat there and talked.[wif mr ng's old students]
talked bout tchers.was damn farny la.
imitating mrs low and all.haha.
den the old gals left.
we spent time talkin bout class tchers people in our class and stuff like tad.
den we finally decided to go home.
met mum fer dinner wif aunts.
we got free dinner.and im totally bloated.
back home now.
im super tired.
gona head fer the bed.
i cant believe we've got school tomorrow.
see yer'll.
peace.
song of the dae - save it for a rainy day.

i did a rough sketch at 9:40 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

last entry was like...daes ago..
maybe bout a week.
so we had our self awareness camp on fri[4th and 5th feb]
was good overall.
sharing was wonderful altho i had to leave halfwae fer tournament and didnt hear much
i think mr ng ms lim n ms jo teo rocked the entire world.
ms teo is so funkyily cool.
i swear i'll do all my eng homeweork now!!
all in all camp was a blast!!
after camp.came home.showered.
wen to church.olps.
chocomania tickets.
get back home.was super tired.
next dae started at 530.
sold tickets.bitched.sold tickets.begged people to donate.
wen to aunts house to sell them tickets.
dae ended at 11.
tads how tough life's been.
i really gtg now.
gif u guys a more detailed update another time.
peace
song of the dae - piano.

i did a rough sketch at 6:01 PM

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

this week has been pretty shitt..
we had to rush
-cny deco.
-self-awareness camp shirts.
-some chocomania thing.
all this stupid things should juz die.
gosh.thank god tad cny deco thing is over.
ï realised tad our class bid was very high.
haha.the second highest 10000 excuse me.
some sae we're stupid..
actually most sae we're stupid but o wells.
please 4/4 show it to all of em.
we can do it..like of coz..
many things to rush.many things to discuss.
ok.tournament was alrite i guess.
we've played like 3 matches already.
played in two.won both.(:
singles todae was damn scary.first singles.
fri another tournament.
honestly i don wan to go fer the tournament.
i wan to stae wif the class.
talkin bout self-awareness.
i jz realised the turnout fer our dinner is ...not good?
so few tchers are comin.
some got stuff on in skool.stuff on at home.
its kinda shitass coz we catered the food n all ready.
but i guess there's nothin we can do bout it.
tads quite sad i guess.
wont be updating in a while i guess.
wif chocomania.awareness camp.tournament.
i need a break soon.
peace out anywae.
song of the dae - stuck in america.

i did a rough sketch at 6:09 PM